Baby nan motae neomuna mot dwaeseo
deo jalhaejugo sipeunde jal andwae
Everyday & night I'm so mean
cuz I'm so real so I'm sorry
but I can't change
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"If you will die right now, what's your final wish?" Nakasandal si Selene sa balikat ni TOP at nasa terrace sila ng bahay ng tita niya, na tinutuluyan nila sa Mindoro.
"I don't want to spend my last days in the hospital. I just want to spend it by your side."
Parang may kung anong bumara sa lalamunan niya. Kailan ba pumalya si TOP na magpakakilig? Boses pa lang ni TOP solved na siya tas dagdagan ba ng mga ganoong paandar.
This was their Day 1. Never pa siyang nag-countdown sa buong buhay niya. Pwera na lang kapag New Year. Wala siyang sinabi kay TOP. She had already made her decision. Nung umalis si Cheska nung isang araw, alam na niya ang kailangan niyang gawin (kahit ayaw niya) – she had to let him go.
May mga bagay na mas magiging madali kapag binitawan. She was counting the days she had to spend with TOP. Dapat niyang sulitin ang mga araw na nasa tabi pa niya ang lalaki.
"Are you crying?" tanong ni TOP. Napasinghot kasi siya.
"No."
"Saranghae, Selene."
TOP tapped her head. Alam niyang intimate gestures iyon sa Korea. Mas nagiging ganito ang sitwasyon mas lalo siyang nasasaktan. Masokista nga ata siya.
"I love you too, TOP. So much,"
"Hey, don't cry. I'm here okay." TOP looked at her. Ayaw niyang tumingin sa lalaki baka kasi hindi na niya ito makayang iwan after one week.
"I know."
"I remembered this one interview of BIGBANG, when they have asked me about my ideal woman. I remembered that I've said that I want a girl who has a feminine side because I don't have that kind of characteristics." Tumawa ito. "Guess what I have realized now, Selene? That I won't care if you are feminine or not. Or you passed my ideal type of a woman. As long as it is you."
"You said you want an innocent looking chic."
Tumawa si TOP. "You were innocent right?"
Gusto niyang himatayin sa lalim ng boses ni TOP. At alam niyang may iba itong gustong sa innocent na iyon.
"You, pervert, ajhussi."
"Ajhussi? I am not that old, woman."
"Hehehe. Sorry na. Guwapo mo." Kinurot niya ang pisngi nito. Hinuli ni TOP ang kamay niya saka...hinalikan.
GOSH!
"I love you."
"Ulit-ulit lang. Jusko ka TOP. I love you too."
He kissed her head.
"What if they find us TOP? And they force you to go with them. To go back to Korea."
"I won't leave you."
"What if you have to?"
"I don't want to, Selene."
"But you have to," pabulong niyang sabi.
"Listen to me, Selene. If I have no choice but to leave you, I will still choose you. Even if I have to forget my career, or my friends. I know one day will come that they will accept me. Accept us."
"Yaksok halge?'
Alam niyang imposible iyon pero nangangako si TOP. Some other time, she would be happy upon hearing that promise. Pero nahahati siya ngayon.
"Ye, Selene."
"I am still scared."
Sa halip na sagutin, "Did you see that Orion constellation, Selene?" Napatingin siya sa langit. Hindi niya kabisado ang mga stars. Sorry na sa teacher niya noong high school.
"I feel like I am Orion. I am star and I am always here for you. Wherever you are, just looked up that sky."
"Are you saying good-bye?" kinabahan siya.
"No good-byes for us, Selene. Aniyo."
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