The One

Chapter 23: Fickle minds.

Alyssa's P.O.V

Rowan dropped three more college application forms on her bed. We were at her house to study when she began bringing out all her application forms.

"Damn why do you have this much?" I questioned, picking them and letting them pour back on the bed. She heaved a sigh.

"Lemme guess, your douche dad?" asked Shannon. I chuckled, nudging her slightly with my elbow.

"He's just so suffocating. Each day it's 'college this' and 'did you find any application online'. It's driving me out of my fucking mind."

I felt so sad for her. Like I explained earlier, Mr Denner just expected way too much from Ro. More than she could offer anyway, and he needed to realise that before it got too late.

Shannon and I pulled her into a warm hug.

"I hear Faye's throwing a party next weekend." I murmured into her ear.

Maybe that was what she needed. An escape of some sort.

"So? I don't want to go to that bitch's party." she replied shrugging us off.

I frowned slightly. "Okay so... no party?"

"Rowan, that bitch throws the best parties in the whole of Westfield and you know it." Shannon said.

"Yeah, all the seniors from other schools are usually there. Even college guys. Hot college guys." I winked at her.

She whipped her head to gawk at me. "You're on her side? You have a boyfriend, Aly."

"Okay first of all," I started, raising a finger. "Cameron is not my boyfriend. Second of-"

"When is that going to happen anyway?" interjected Shannon. "You guys have gone on what, seven dates? What's holding him back?"

"Probably the same thing holding Darren back." scoffed Rowan.

"Jordan too, right?" she fired.

I laughed at their bickering.

Rowan shook her head. "Boys can be so fickle minded."

"I'm gonna pretend like you didn't just say that." said Shannon.

"The word or the sentence?"

"The word. I totally agree with the sentence."

We got back to studying afterwards, while Ro packed up her applications.

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That night, I lay in my bed underneath my warm comforter, playing soft music in my ears and watching the fan rolling in spirals directly above me.

I was doing my least favorite but now best thing in the world. I was thinking... again.

The words Shannon said had really gotten to me and now I'm over analyzing things even when I know I shouldn't. We had gone on a few more dates after the day at the park and we haven't kissed.

But that's not something I'm really looking forward to.

What if I can't trust myself enough to take that leap again?

For all I know, I could even be a horrible kisser. I mean, I've only ever kissed a guy once and it was all a rush of emotions so I didn't  even know what I was doing.

One thing is for sure though. I really like Cameron and I'm positive that he reciprocates those feelings. There's always that tension between us whenever we got close so that's a sign right?