Two Different Worlds

Chapter Eight ~ Confession

Chapter Eight ~ Confession

" ...I was thinking more of us together, a girlfriend boyfriend relationship. It's not possible for us. Is it? "

...Continued~~~

KyungSoo: I'll do my best to try to make it less painful for you, sorry if I couldn't help much.

Me: It's okay i should be thanking you for helping me anyways

KyungSoo: see you around school tomorrow?

Me: Okay

~Tomorrow~

I go to school like always, KyungSoo has finally given me eye contact, at least now I don't feel ignored and at least I know for sure he'll be there for me now. I am relieved to know that he still cares for me.

~Lunch Time, Alone in The Locker Rooms with KyungSoo~

KyungSoo: um (YourName), before you go, I want to talk with you for a second

Me: Sure what is it?

KyungSoo: well it's like, eh never mind I uhh got to get going now heh see you around?

Me: um okay? Are you okay? Are you sick or anything?

KyungSoo: What me? Oh no, I uhh am perfectly fine I just um

Me: if you have something to say to me, just tell me. I don't like secrets in between the two of us.

~KyungSoo's Point of View~
I took her hands in mine. There was no way I was backing up now. Here is my chance, I can't blow it, and I can't be a chicken about this. Be straight up with her KyungSoo. Like how you always do, tell her. Be brave.

KyungSoo: I have a confession to make.

Me: What is it?

KyungSoo: Um well it's been such a great time with you, I really just want to say you're a truly a great friend of mine.

I lied, it wasn't what I really wanted to say in the heart. I couldn't speak, I couldn't get the words out of my mouth, I just couldn't, I was too shy, there is something that makes me can't tell her, something I've never felt before, or was it just the meaning of TRUE love and not just any type of love. I didn't know how to start it, what if she rejects me? What if she starts to ignore me? What if I can't be friends with her anymore? Making the first step is always so hard, there's so many questions that come to mind and they're mostly scared of what the outcome might be. I don't want to lose her, but what if she just didn't feel the same way and would feel that I'm creepy since I like her? It wouldn't work out like that would it? it's too big of a risk to lose her as a friend. Maybe when I understand her more and when it's the right time.

~My Point of View~
I knew KyungSoo was lying, by the look of his face, you can tell he wanted to say more than just that, I didn't want to force him either but I accepted his confession, I feel the same. I really was hoping for him to confess that he liked me. The moment he said the word 'Confession' my heart started beating faster and faster every second. While he holds onto my hands, my face blush and turns pink in less than five seconds. It was crazy how he can make me feel so different, feel like another person, but at the same time, make me feel like someone who is so special and actually mean something to the world. It would mean everything if he really did confess to me that he liked me. It would be a dream come true. What if that was just really how he felt towards me, another friend. What to do, I can't just say like oh KyungSoo I like you or like will you go out with me? Like it's really weird and I don't know, it just doesn't feel right. I'm scared he'd reject me and if he did we might not even stay as friends, I don't want to lose him as a friend. He's my one and only friend who is always there for me whether physically or mentally. He's always on my mind, everything he says stays in my head, always making me smile whether if I was in the worst moment in life and when he's there to save me from Rose and all those other people at school and them bully me, he's my hero, he's my one and only hero. I can't risk to ruin all that just to fulfill my needs of wanting him. It's a little selfish don't you think? I walked off first after minutes of silence and awkward eye contact.

~KyungSoo's Point of View~
KyungSoo! She's leaving! Just tell her! Call her to come back or text her in words if you really can't tell her in person. Grab her hands, hug her, just don't let her go! If you really can't, give her a call, tell her on the phone. But what can I do? I don't think it'll be appropriate to tell her on the phone, is it? I can't see her reaction, I can't tell if she's going to tell a lie to me or not. Just go hug her! Make her stay KyungSoo! Or yell something to get her attention, you can't just let her go like that! KyungSoo! My brain constantly tells me all these things as if having a war between myself.

~My Point of View~

KyungSoo: (YourName), wait

Me: Is there something missing? Or did I forget anything?

KyungSoo: no I just um call me when you get home? Or text me? I just want to make sure you're going to be safe. Unless you want me to drive you home?

Me: well that wouldn't be good because what if Rose or anyone saw us together? I thought you wanted to avoid me

KyungSoo: I don't, it's an act.

Me: i know

KyungSoo: but I don't care about it anymore, I just want to make sure you're safe, I want to make sure I, myself can keep you safe no matter how much hate i get or anything. I just want to make sure you'll be safe.

Me: i'll be fine, just don't worry, I don't want the world to hate on you for just driving me home, is that worth it? I can walk myself

I smile at him and hug him once and walk off again but KyungSoo grabs my hands.

KyungSoo: you know what, I have to tell you now. Well truth is..

Me: Another confession?

KyungSoo: Yea um I feel like I'm annoying you, am I? if you don't want to be here you can leave

Me: no I want to hear what your confession is

KyungSoo: Well to be honest..

Me: take your time

I smile at him as he takes my hands again. I look down and blush.

KyungSoo: funny how you can change your tone of language just like that. First you seem so mean when you said 'another confession?'

Me: ahah well I didn't know how else to say it and I didn't know it'll end up sounding so rude. Sorry

KyungSoo: it's okay, anyways back to my confession.. to be honest, I think you're a really smart, intelligent, fun, sweet, amazing, talented, funny, beautiful girl. It's such a big lost for those who choose to bully you than to be friends with you because being friends with you is amazing, there aren't much people like you, who are so sweet and good in everything. You look pretty, you're smart, willing to learn, and you don't give up. You aren't a show off and you don't mind what others would say to you because you don't let it get to you, if you have a goal set in mind, nothing is going to change that, no one is going to make you stop and I love that personality of yours. I was amazed at first but the more time I spent with you, the more I had fell in love with you. Out of all the girls, out of miliions I pick you because you're the one who caught my attention and who stole my heart. If I had to say one bad thing about you, I don't think I have anything because even if you did have any flaws, they all meant perfection to me still. I don't know where I'd be without you, you've changed me so much, you can reject me i know because I was a plyaer before but ever since you came in to my life, i realized how important it is to have the girl of your life. The love of your life. I realized how stupid it was to bully people, I found out where i really want to be, i found my true life and not those childish games anymore. I found where I really want to be and that is to be by your side forever and to protect you forever.

I was shocked of what he just told me, I didn't know what to say, I didn't know how to respond, I never thought he would feel the same way I did for him. As I was thinking of what I could say, KyungSoo took the chance to lean in and kiss me. I kissed him back.

KyungSoo: Now that you kissed me back, that means you agree you won't reject me

Me: But it doesn't mean I agree either

We both laughed a little and he took my hands and I shyly walked with him to his car, he drove me and dropped me off at my house.

...To Be Continued~~~

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