Two Different Worlds

Chapter Forty Five ~ Reason

Chapter Forty Five ~ Reason

" The sun was beautiful. There were wind but it was not too windy.

KyungSoo: today is such a nice day for a picnic and the beach! "

...Continued~~~

KyungSoo and I prepared plenty of food for the picnic because we had thirteen people including me. Sandwhich for every person and extra snacks such as fruits, crackers, chips, and other food they liked. I felt like they needed me for once. Where I came to use for once. This feeling was very special for me actually, it means the world to know that I made them smile. Anything I do, I think it's worth it because EXO is my everything and I'd do anything to see them smile whether it was a million times or just once, I'll always do my best to make them smile. They've brought be back my happiness and my smile, they constantly take away my fears and to know that they accept me as friends, I'm beyond thankful. The biggest thing that always hits me is KyungSoo falling for me. It was really sudden when he told me, I never thought I'd hear anyone tell me that either but he proved me wrong. I took in a deep breathe and relaxed from my thoughts. What a beautiful day with the people who mean everything to me. This is my only wish because these aren't ordinary people or singers and dancers and rappers, they're more, inspiration and also life savers, heroes, and of course my lovers. It was trouble in the beginning for me, although I had a bias, I fell for each member slowly after time. I wanted to stay in those moments. It was hard. But I have one thing to say. KyungSoo was the one. KyungSoo was my partner I've been looking for. The one to complete my life. It was there in front of my eyes. Always the first willing to help me. But I can tell you that it was hard not to fall in love with all of them! But I'm glad it wasn't for long that I'd felt the same for all of them, I realized that I couldn't be selfish no matter how bad of a life I had, as time flew within that same day, I began to have my love for KyungSoo, realizing he was the protector of my life and the smile to my face.

Chanyeol: let's eat faster so we can have more time at the beach?

Baekhyun: Noo we go later to the beach so we can see the sun set!

Chen: ahh Chanyeol why in such a hurry?

Chanyeol: I want to go play in the water

Suho: we can go later Chanyeol, let's eat.

Chanyeol: Okay

Instead of eating, Chanyeol took his guitar and started playing a song that was so familiar but I didn't know where I heard it from. I listened and enjoyed listening to it as I ate. As Chanyeol sang the words, I tried to figure out the song but I couldn't think of what it could be so I just sang along to the chorus and ate while swaying back and forth. I didn't care if people looked, I feel so comfortable and I can be myself with these twelve people even if I'm in public because they're as silly as me, and I know I'm never alone. They've got my back.

Chen: wow this tastes so good!

Me: I added a special sauce recipe that I learned from my grandmother before she passed away. It was the only one and thing I knew aside from cooking rice. I hope you like it

Sehun: wow it's indescribable! Is there seconds for me?

Me: more for everyone. There is also fruits if you like.

KyungSoo feeds me a grape and I bite his finger on purpose and wink at him. He smiles back with a not so happy look but he was still willing to feed me fruits. I fed him back as well.

Suho: yah too much, you two should have went on a picnic date instead of inviting us here

I ignored Suho and hugged KyungSoo real tight. He kisses me on the forehead and I smile. I continued eating with the rest of the other EXO members and there was silence till Baekhyun and Chen started singing a song. We were going to stay at the park for a while and go to the beach. After minutes and minutes of singing, dancing, and eating, everyone wanted to go to the beach really bad all of a sudden. So we did as we have planned. We've arrived at the beach and we ran straight into the waters without hesitation. I splashed water at everyone and they all tried to push me down into the waters as I pushed the others down. When KyungSoo fell, he grabbed me and I fell on top of him, leading to a kiss. He hugged me as I tried to get up from the waters to catch my breathe but he didn't let go. When he let goes, he starts laughing a lot and I push him back down in the water and splashing and kicking water at the other members. That moment when my heart was pounding as KyungSoo and I kissed in the water, how is eyes sparkled as I looked into them. If only I met him before, before all my troubles had started so I wouldn't have to suffer so much. I didn't want to think anymore, my life is better now, it's complete, i found the person who I belong to. I finally found it, my parents would be so proud of me, especially my sister and my grandmother. If only they were here to be able to witness this moment in life. Sometimes I even think, why didn't I die with my family? Why did I have to be left out and be the only one to suffer all this? It's not fair that it's just me, why do I have to feel this pain? But this is the moment of truth, where I can answer all thsoe questions I had in my head, everything is clear. The world had something special for me and it was meeting KyungSoo. Meeting my soul mate and a group of friends that are like my brothers who are always after me and there to help and support me. Now I won't look back and wish I was gone because I wouldn't trade this for anything. Nothing. A wind started blowing as we were playing in the water. It got pretty cold so we all raced to the sand where it was warm and we sat down playing with the sand. I started to draw on the sand. Spelling out KyungSoo's name as I was thinking about him. I added hearts around it and wrote 'I love you' I really want to thank him for changing my life and always making me happy and protecting me.

Me: KyungSoo Thank you for smiling.

KyungSoo: thank you for being my reason to smile

Me: Whenever I see you smile, I just have to smile back and think about how lucky I am to have you.

KyungSoo: I'm the lucky one to have you.

He kissed me as he read 'I love you' on the sand. He started to spell out something as well. I read one letter after the other as he wrote it out.

Me: Y - O - U    A - R - E    M - Y   L - I - F - E. You are my life.

I hugged him tight as he hugged me back. He kisses me on top of my head. I love the feeling of being so safe in his arms. The feeling of feeling safe isn't easy to find and it's not hard for me to get tired of it because it's so special to me because I never felt this feeling in years. I was going to break down soon if I haven't met KyungSoo. When he says I'm his life, I think I should be the one to say "You're my life" because he's the reason why I'm here and so happy too, no more sadness, no more tears, and even having the feeling of being loved again. That moment when I'm so thankful that I sound retarded repeating myself over and over but how can I ever express my feelings? I don't think one thank you is enough.

Me: KyungSoo the thing is.. well I should be telling you that phrase. I can't get over myself with constantly saying thank you because I just feel like i owe my life to you, for making me the happy girl I am, and just to give me happiness through all your hard times, my hard times, and our hard times.

It was about time that KyungSoo realized how much he meant to me, that he was my every reason to smile and every reason to be happy, my every reason to look forward to my life, to the day when he proposes and when we're engaged and married. When before I never thought I had history and when I thought I was going to die soon but now I'm thinking of how my future would be like and how amazing life turned out to be, because of him <3

...To Be Continued~~~

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