Two Different Worlds

Chapter Thirty Two ~ Not Over

Chapter Thirty Two ~ Not Over

" Me: Good bye California, Hawaii, my next stop. Good bye KyungSoo, good bye Suho, good bye EXO. I love you, saranghae <3 "

...Continued~~~

KyungSoo... I'm not over you yet, don't think that. I love you still, I really do. You mean everything to me if you didn't know. You're my reason to smile, my reason to laugh, my reason to stay happy, to keep myself from crying, but I wish you knew that, I wish you knew what I really felt inside. When you recieve this news that I'm leaving, and that you won't find me anymore, don't think that I never cared about you because everything I'm doing is all for you. Only for you. Because I don't want to hurt you, you've been through a lot already with your aunt and I want to give you a break from all this. Don't we both need a break? But this is going to be a real long break. More than hours, days, weeks, months, years. The break is over when we're in another world together but KyungSoo still has his life on Earth while mine is about to be gone. What am I suppose to do? I don't want to leave him for so long, I can't even stand a day without him, what am I suppose to do? Why does love have to hurt so much? Love is all about sacrificing. I'm sacrificing all this so that he won't be hurt later on, I just wish he knew that, I wish he did so he would stop looking for me, I don't want him to miss me more, I don't want him to constantly think about me when I'm gone because that will only hurt him. I want him to be happy, although we're both sad right now, it won't last very long, in the end we're both going to be happy somehow. Either that I've seen KyungSoo move on and find someone who truly loves him and is meant for him. If life was to bring this to my life, this health problem, it's only a sign to tell me that there is no more warnings anymore, that because I didn't leave KyungSoo's side, life will take me away. I don't know why it hurts so much but again love is precious that can only make you feel different, that can make you feel happy or sad. It's such an important thing to worry about that's why you can't fool aorund with it. And because I don't want to full around with love, I will have to let things go, sacrifice this chance to be with KyungSoo because after all the world doesn't want us together. It's only a sign that Two Different Worlds can't be together. It has to be separate. It can't come together because it will only create something that will ruin this world. I'm going to miss you KyungSoo. I think it's time to let you go from my heart. Let's not cry anymore, let's not shed anymore tears, okay? We'll be fine in the end KyungSoo, I promise.

~KyungSoo's Point of View~
Why can life be so harsh? But life is never fair, no matter how hard you try, someone out there who doesn't try as hard as you gets what they want but when you try your hardest, you don't get anything in return but pain. I hate this feeling. I try so had to keep (YourName) happy by my side and to love her, to take care of her, to treat her like she's the only one in my life but then everythign is just pain in the end while others can barely try and just buy them a small little gift that anyone can do and just be together. Isn't it suppose to be that as long as you take the time to care and love for them that things will end up right? I take my time to do so much for (YourName), but yet life is going to end up like this for me. If the world wants me to realize that there is someone better out there, I'm not going to let go of (YourName), because she's the best one for me and always be in my heart. I'll wait for her even if I get old because my love will still be the same and that's all that matters, that my love never changed for her and because of this, I'm not going to let go, I'm not going to give up. I'm not going to let (YourName) leave like that. I get off my bed and buy a ticket to Hawaii to relax and re think about everything I had in my head, I don't know what to think, if I'm wrong, then what's going to happen? Will it only make her get farther away from me or will it make us get closer again? I don't know anymore. I will just leave for Hawaii to just let myself stop thinking abou this. I don't want to hurt anymore. Will anyone take this pain from me? Most important, can anyone take away the pain that (YourName) has? I wish I can but she doesn't want me to look for her. I posted a photo with a caption ~Going to Hawaii to take a break from pain, but don't worry I'll be fine~

~My Point of View~
I saw KyungSoo's photo and paniced, how can this be such a coincidence? How can we both be going to Hawaii? I have wasted enough money on plane tickets and I won't have enough to spend anymore, are we really suppose to be together? Are we really meant for each other? I don't get life anymore, sometimes it tells me that I have to let go but on the other hand it tells me not to let go, what is it?

~Author's Point of View~
(YourName) does not give up anymore because life is only a temptation for everyone and you can't take in things such as 'oh it's meant to be because the world is so cruel to us' because it's only a temptation to see if you're going to stay strong or give up.

~My Point of View~
I won't give up, no matter what life brings to me because I'm not going to let the world ruin me, to change me. I'm who I am and KyungSoo loves me for me because of who I am. I won't let these things change me anymore, I won't let these things get in my way or in our way. We are meant ot be together from the very start, the moment we walked into each other's lives. The moment we made eye contact, the moment KyungSoo was there to save me. We are meant to be and always will be forever and always.

~Author's Point of View~
KyungSoo and (YourName) both go to the same beach, with the same drink, wearing the same color shirt, and both with sunglasses. They both walk closer to the water and eventually they bump into each other. They look at each other, surprised they will see each other there. KyungSoo was extremely happy because he got to see her again. He hugs her tight in his arms and says he'll never let her go. He repetitively says 'We're not over yet'

~My Point of View~
Me: KyungSoo.. I've thought about it, I don't want to leave you either, I know we're not over, because I love you too much but also since I love you this much, I don't want to hurt you don't you see?

KyungSoo: if I was to never see you again and you left me alone in this world, I would regret even more, that I never realzied that you were in so much pain, that I didn't get to spend the last ew seconds with you, that I never got to say my last 'I love you' I would regret so much if you just left like that.

Me: KyungSoo I'm sorry for making you worry

KyungSoo: what disease do you have that is so uncurable?

Me: KyungSoo.. I don't want to talk about it.

KyungSoo: it's curable right?

Me: Yes it is..

KyungSoo: why didn't you tell me so?! You said it was fatal...

Me: because I didn't want you to worry, because i didn't have the money to do the surgery, because I didn't want to bother you about money or anything, after all your aunt will be really mad.

KyungSoo: Silly, I don't care what the cost is, because all the value of my life is in you and if you left, my life would be left with no reason. I can spend all my money but I don't want to lose you. After all my aunt is the reason. (YourName), you promised you won't let anything get in between us, I didn't believe it when you told me you didn't want to be with me anymore, I thought your heart changed for someone else but you only did that to cover up didn't you?

Me: KyungSoo... don't be like this, it's not your aunt's fault.

KyungSoo: I'll always be there for you, let's not have anymore secrets between us okay?

...To Be Continued~~~

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