Two Different Worlds

Chapter Twenty ~ Just A Dream

Chapter Twenty ~ Just A Dream

" ~KyungSoo's Point of View~

I cried in tears as I looked at her and fell to the floor, crying harder........ "

...Continued~~~

KyungSoo: (YourName), I don't know anymore. I don't know if I regret marrying Rose, I don't know if I feel the same way for you. I don't know how to be your friend like this anymore. It hurts so much to see you hurt like this. It's only because of me and I regret hurting you before. I never realized how much I meant to you. I never thought you meant it. I never thought about you and I because I guess I never had the heart for it. Maybe I'm not good enough for you that's all. I know I can't go back in time to undo the marriage, I know I can't ever make it up to you. You were such a sweet nice, friendly girl who never deserved so much hatred. I wish I stood by your side, I wish I was there to fight for you, if that was all I could ever do to repay you back, I would. I always thought we would never be possible, so i gave up, I never thought our worlds can combine since you already now that we are two different worlds. I never thought we can share one dream. I know I've doubted you. I know you'll hate me forever but yet always try to be there for me and to make me happy and to love my life. My whole life, I never realized till now that all my happiness, originally comes from you. From what you do for me. Everyday just giving me a smile makes me smile back. Just you existing in my life. I don't know how to make you accept me. I don't know if you're the one who I really love in my heart. I really don't know if you're the one for me. I want you to tell me what i can do for you, what to make you smile too. If all you ever asked was for me to be happy, I'll do it, only thinking of you and because of you I smile. I want to tell you that you've made me smile hundreds of times and not anyone else, but you. I've always blushed when you were around, my heart would beat faster when you look at me with a smile. I always ignored these feelings because Rose was someone who really means a lot to me. She made me feel happy when all along, it was you, you where the real reason why I was happy. I really wish this marriage was with you. I really wish the baby was ours. Not Rose. I wish it was you because you're the one for me because our two different worlds can collide to one, if we give it a try. I'm sorry I didn't give you a chance, to prove how much you love me, I'm sorry I found out now, I know you'll be happy that I've found out but it's not something for me to be happy about because it's too late now, it's too late for us. I can't leave Rose alone with the baby. They are my responsibilities. Please tell me how to live this life. Please wake up. Please. To see you cry over our wedding, it's hard to take it in when I was the reason to cause you so much pain without even realizing or knowing this. I know I've acted like you never existed. I didn't even invite you and you were here to congratulate me. You're so sweet, so nice, so great to me. While I'm so mean, rude, and just I am so sorry. I really wish this was just a dream so I can realize that the real one I love is you and not Rose. So I wouldn't have made this mistake. So I won't hurt you, so I won't let you go like this. I love you.

~My Point of View~

I wake up to see KyungSoo on my side, holding my hands. How am I suppose to reply to him? I feel so bad to ruin their wedding. He is suppose to be eating with them, why is he here? Why would he even care for me? This reminds me of the beginning of the school year when he was their to save me from Rose. He's always my hero and always will be. I'm speechless, only left with the words Thank You.

Me: Thank you KyungSoo..for everything, for being there for me. For always making me smile, just for being my hero through all my troubel times. I don't know how to explain how greatful I am for you. Even if you don't count me as a friend or anyone in your life, I want to thank you for everything you did, for taking the time to protect me. I owe you so much. I owe you all the happiness you gave to me throughout my whole life.

KyungSoo: Please don't say that it hurts so much. (YourName). I don't even know how to tell you, how sorry I am for you, how rude and stupid I was to you. How could I let you slip out of my life just like that. I always thought I loved Rose. I thought you never meant anything to me. I always believed we would never be. I thought we would never love each other like that. I thought of you wrong, maybe I never knew you as well as I thought I did. I'm sorry to give you such a depression. I'm sorry. I really regret my marriage

Me: why? It's such a happy day for you! Why can you say that?

KyungSoo: No it's not, I always thought I loved Rose, but it was you who I loved. It was you who made me happy, it was you who changed me. It was you, I really wished it was just a dream but i can't just say what is a dream or what not. Love is something I can't control with money. You are my all, my everything, I don't want to let you leave my life.

Me: I'll always be your friend KyungSoo, please don't make me cry on such a special day for you.

KyungSoo: no, you can cry, you don't have to hold it in for me, it was me who made you cry, let it out please, let me comfort you, let me make it up to you, I know I can't ever let it go anymore because I know I can never do something for you to make you happy ever again. I know you'll never give another shot in love life because of me. I regret so much, i feel like I've ruined your life.

Me: No you haven't KyungSoo, please don't think it that way, I'm fine, believe me.

KyungSoo: I wish to be with you, I could if I wanted to, but to dump Rose and the baby away, people will judge me, will hate me, and they will also hate you because they think you're the one who ruined the family. I don't want that, it was my stupidity, it was my fault, it's all my responsibility now. I can't leave just like that. If I was strong enough, if I was a real man, I would stick up to the world to be with you, to tell the world that I'm not the one to just leave people alone with babies, to tell the world that I really love you, to tell the world that Rose and I aren't meant to be, to tell the world that I am a responsible person. If I said that, they'll never believe me because they just won't. It would also ruin your life as well, I know you will give anything up to be with me. I know. I will stop the marriage now for you

Me: no! Don't! Are you crazy?! If you do, I would be crying in pain to know that I was the reason to make you go through all this to fullfill my needs and to be hated and treated differently from everyone just for me?

KyungSoo: I'm sorry I can't do anything for you.

KyungSoo faints and fall to the floor. I shout 'KyungSoo! KyungSoo!'

~~~~~~~~~~~End of Dream~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I scream! I look around to see I was still on the airplane, KyungSoo next to me. It was only a dream! Everything was just a dream! What a relief! It was not real, they didn't have a baby, they didn't marry, they didn't date at all.

....To Be Continued~~~

Note: The italics represent the dream! The dream started from chapter fifteen!

I hope you like this chapter and the story so far! Have a good day~~ sorry i didn't post yesterday!