Two Different Worlds

Chapter Forty Nine ~ Sorry

Chapter Forty Nine ~ Sorry

" KyungSoo: I've always been the same, like how I always save you, I did again.

Me: you use to be there that very moment but this time you're late, you've changed, you've put me second in your heart because truth you never loved me. "

...Continued~~~

KyungSoo: I wasn't planning to come to school today because I was too sad to face you, I was scared I was going to break down when I see you but Chen told me you were being bullied again so i rushed here to help you. Chen said he was busy with something else for his family, so to him you're second to me, you're first.

Me: Whatever.. you can say anything, stop trying to show how much you care for me when you don't care for me at all? And I don't get why you're trying to drag Chen into this? What did he do? I thought he was like your brother

KyungSoo: He is my brother, and I'm not blaming him or dragging him into anything, I was trying to state the truth, didn't you want people to be truthful to you but whatever, it's up to you how you want to think of me or hate me but under one circumstance, please please please let me take care of you.. I want to protect you from Rose, from everyone who bullies you, let me love you, it doesn't matter if you don't love me back, just let me love you, let me see you happy.. I can't let Rose hurt you anymore

Me: If you keep saying Rose is hurting me, explain the pictures! She has proof, she's not hurting me! I won't trust you, never again! Don't try to make me love you when you never did. You probably only felt bad for me, hoping revenge won't come to you so you tried to treat me nicer. You're only hurting me! And even if, I can't love someone who killed my family! I only had my grandma left after they died..but she was ill and soon left me too. Are you even human? How are you not in jail?!

KyungSoo: yea why am I not?! If there was evidence showing I was the one who killed them, why am I not in jail? (yourName) focus! Is it all too real? Or fake? After you move in with us, a flow of jealousy comes in. Rose tries to do everything to bring you away from me by being nicer to you for a moment or so, wanting all your trust on her lies.

Me: she's my friend, she even got kicked out of her group to be friends with me. She's not bad like you think!

KyungSoo: Really? and did you know that she never got bullied? She only tried to stop them but couldn't because they're still under her order! She's pretending.. Why doesn't she get bullied? Why is it only you? After all she betrayed them to be your friend like you said. She's only using you to get closer to you. You tell her all your thoughts, that only helps her to get to you

What KyungSoo said was true about her not ever getting bullied.. I thought that too, it was weird.. what if he was right?

Me: but the pictures...

KyungSoo: can't you see it's edited? Don't you see that my car isn't damaged at all when the other car is completely broken. Where is the damage on my car? Look at the color in the back, this side is different from the other. Only meaning they took two different pictures to make this. Look at the date, it's all wrong, remember when you told me the date of the accident? this isn't even the correct date you told me! This is the wrong year, wrong month, wrong day, and wrong time! And I never had my license that time yet! I know you trust me, I know it's something that means your life when it's about your family, I won't hate you or blame you.

I stare at him blank and back at the pictures, taking in what he just said. So that means.. I blamed him for nothing? I hurt him for no reason? I treated him so bad and said so many mean words. I guess my mom was right about what you see with your eyes aren't always the truth. How sorry I am, I don't know how to respond.. And by my surprise, I never thought KyungSoo would even remember everything, the year, month, date, and time of when the car accident happened that caused my parents to die. I can only see how much he really loves and cares about me.. How do I respond to him now?

Me: KyungSoo.. I don't know what to say.. I've blamed you for so long and I can't believe you remember these type of things for me, the date of the car accident, I didn't expect you'd remember, but you did, you really do care about me.. KyungSoo.. sorry, I know I've mistaken you

KyungSoo: I don't blame you, I won't because I know it was hard for you to take it in when you heard about it. Especially if you have no evidence to prove it wrong, it's hard not to believe it right?

Me: KyungSoo.. you're so nice to me.

KyungSoo: I'm not, I'm not nice enough to you, I'm not loving you right that there is so much places where you won't be able to trust me. If you don't trust me, then I'm not doing a good job of making you believe me, how would I be responsible for your life when we get married if I can't even get you to trust me? I just..

Me: KyungSoo.. Mianhae.. I.. I'm really sorry, it's not that I don't trust you, like you said, it's about my family, it's important to me.

KyungSoo: more important than me, so don't be sorry I know, I'll always love you anyways.

Me: KyungSoo, you're making me cry! I love you, stop it, you're just as important to me

KyungSoo: I know, don't worry, let's just say this never happened. All if this, as if we just got back from the holidays, okay?

Me: We did just get back from the holidays though..

KyungSoo: aish.. I know but forget what happened.

Me: I know that, I was just playing with you!

KyungSoo: the (YourName) I've known and fell for, is finally back

Me: I've never been away

KyungSoo: hmm sure

I laugh him and he smiles and laughs with me. He leans in to kiss me and I kiss him back. I hug him tight and whisper 'I miss you' He picks me up off the floor and spins me around. I was real happy on the outside but in the inside, I was regretting, I felt so sorry, I'm so sorry to KyungSoo, I hurted him so much but he can act like nothing happened. He must be really strong to take it all in and even forgive me and pretend nothing happened. KyungSoo. I'm scared you might be hurting deep inside, I'm scared you're hating me on the inside. I'm scared that you're not okay because of me. I'm scared that I'm the reason that you'd probably be real sensitive in the future. I'm really scared that I've hurt you so much that I left a painful memory in your heart that will last and follow you in your life forever wherever you go. I'm so sorry. I really am but I don't want to bring this sadness back to us, I don't want to remind you of it, I don't want us to fight over it again but I'm so worried you're not okay right now. I know you'd be really worried if I was to forever be sorry to you, I know you want me to just forget it and be happy, I know you're only seeking to find a way for me to be happy forever. I'm so thankful for you. I won't be sorry anymore because I'll make it up to you instead. Instead of saying sorry and to sit there and not be able to help you or make it up to you or make you smile again. I will be as happy as I can be, because of you, I'll smile for you because I know that's what you want, I don't want to worry you so I will smile with my brightest smile so it will shine in your head and be left there so you'd always see me in your mind, like you've captured every moment when I was happy.

KyungSoo: I love you, I love you so much (YourName).

Me: I love you too

I gave him a big smile and held his hands.

KyungSoo: I miss that smile of yours, it's so beautiful, it always gives me a need to smile back.

Me: I'll smile for you everyday, okay?

I don't want to just smile for him but also to let him know that I'm smiling only because of him <3

...To Be Continued~~~

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