Two Different Worlds

Chapter Twenty Eight ~ One Way

Chapter Twenty Eight ~ One Way

" Everyone got quite after me ranting out. It felt better to express everything I felt inside because if they aren't tired of this, I am and I really need a break from this."

...To Be Continued~~~

KyungSoo: (YourName)..

Me: KyungSoo, please stop. For me. I'll be fine without you, please listen to your aunt to make her happy. I don't want to be the reason in the middle to ruin people's lives.

KyungSoo: (YourName).. you won't be fine without me. Even if you were, I wouldn't be fine without you. Don't lie to yourself because you don't have to. Don't give up now. Please don't, don't let anything get to you or let it bring you down, stay strong like the girl I've known, the strong girl I've fell for who was brave and able to withstand anything.

Me: KyungSoo, there is no point, I'm going to be gone, apart from this world very soon, and before I go, I just want to see you live a happy normal life.

KyungSoo: what do you mean by that?

Me: nothing, just I will be leaving to California tomorrow, I will start a new life there and forget everything that needs to be forgotten.

KyungSoo: why so sudden? You haven't talked to me about it?

Me: I thought I didn't need to, after all you were supposedly getting married today, I attended so that it will make your wishes come true. I was going to leave tonight, after seeing you get married off happily. So that I know you're going to have a good life.

KyungSoo: you act like you don't care about me anymore. What's happening? Did someone force you to say this? I really don't believe you'll say this.

Me: I care about you, and because I care, I just want you to be happy, I don't want to be the reason why you have to go through so much. I don't want to make you regret, I don't want you to think of blaming yourself for choosing me to love or choosing me to stay here with you. The world is against us and we can't do anything about that, the war is over. We can't fight on anymore. We're losers who lost to love.

KyungSoo: you're not the (YourName) I know, you don't give up so easily, I know you don't. You would never.

Me: I only give up for a better ending. What if I suddenly left, leaving you hanging all alone, you'll be so hurt, we all would be hurt, and I don't want you to get hurt.

KyungSoo: what do you mean suddenly leave?

Me: I have to go to California to study and from there I might travel everywhere, how can I stay with you? How can I keep this long distant relationship? How can you?

KyungSoo: you've changed so much and only because of all you've been through, because of all this fighting and arguing, it's made you go crazy. I'm a little going crazy as well because I can't stand these fights and screaming at each other, I wish I can just hold you and hug you forever. I miss you so much.

Me: KyungSoo, you'll understand why I chose this soon, very soon. I won't regret it either because I know what it's going to be like these next few weeks and days.

KyungSoo: I'm so scared, the way you make it sound, is like I won't ever be able to see you.

Me: we won't

KyungSoo: we can FaceTime. Call each other, video chat. I will always be looking at a picture of you at night before I sleep, thinking about how beautiful you are, thinking how lucky I am to have you, thinking how this world would change without you. You don't know how much you've changed my life, and for you to tell me you don't want to continue this relationship anymore? We've come along so far, we're only a step away from being together like a normal couple. How can you give up all our work? Don't you think it's just a little but selfish?

Me: you can blame me, yell at me, slap me, kick me, hit me, push me, anything if it makes you happier but I have a reason for what I do and I know I won't regret it.

KyungSoo: you think that because I love you, I'll need you to live, I can live without you, if you want to be so stubborn about this. This is what I call regret not making you stay but to choose you from the beginning.

Me: so now you're going to start a fight with me? I thought you've changed? But either way I love you for being you and changing my life.

KyungSoo: don't act for me anymore.

~Flash Back To A Few Days Ago~
At the hospital, I walk out of the room and sit on the chairs waiting for my docotr to tell me my health position that I'm in right now. I scroll through my phone, hoping that there wouldn't be anything bad to happen, but I knew myself that I wasn't fine, I worried and kept trying to type something to KyungSoo for him to understand but I couldn't, I deleted the things I wrote again and again till the nurse called my name. I walked into the office and took a seat, giving a sigh, knowing this won't be good and that I need to prepare for the future.

Doctor: Ms. (YourLastName). The results have come out and I just want to inform you that you health isn't the best right now, there are many worries about this disease you have, I will not tell you this disease because I don't want you to worry about it or anything because stress can only make the disease worst. One more thing I can tell you is that you'll constantly have headaches, stomach pain, and lose of memory. The worst is that you'll... die. Most people who have this disease usually die a few weeks of having this disease, but from the body check up, it seems like a few weeks have already pasted of you having this disease..I'm afraid..

Me: I understand thank you doctor

Doctor: you seem to have a lot in your head, why don't you go home right now and say 'I love you' to all your friends, family, or maybe even boyfriend before you don't have the choice anymore

Me: thank you, I appreciate you for everything

I walk out of the office and out the hospital in a very gloomy way, I knew it wasn't good for sure, but I didn't want to die, I don't want to yet, not so fast, there is so much for me to do still, I need more time then this. How will I be able to tell anyone? I don't need them worrying for me. To be honest I only have KyungSoo as my one and only friend and boyfriend and I don't want to make him worry for me. I just don't want to.

~~End of Flashback~~~

~In My Head:
I wish to tell him the truth about why I'm doing this. My health isn't well, it gets worst and worst everyday, that I can just leave this world any minute. I want to leave as soon as possible so that I will be relieved that I don't die in front of him or pass out. I don't want him to be hurt, I rather him be mad at me then to know that I'm in this position because I don't need him to worry about me so much, I want him to forget about me because I don't have long before I depart from this world. The last thing I ever want to do is ignore KyungSoo. Tomorrow night is my flight to California, I don't want to regret without a good bye. I want to spend my day with him tomorrow, but it will only make him miss me even more. But like the doctor says, do it while you have the chance to or it'll be too late and you'll regret it. I don't want to die regretting that I didn't spend time with KyungSoo, after all it was really hurtful for me to act like I didn't care about him anymore. I really do and it hurts to see him like this but what else can I do? I have no choice, it's just a 'one way' that I can go by to live my life now.

KyungSoo: and I never want to see you ever again, you can leave to California, wherever you want to! As long as I don't see you anymore. I can't believe you changed so much, and have given in to my aunt, to give up, to give up our relationship that took us so much to get her and with one saying, you want to put all that to waste?

Me: KyungSoo.. you'll never understand me, until you're me, until you feel the pain I'm in

KyungSoo: there are no pain anymore because now we can be together, forever, happiness after all.

Me: I would but I have no choice, I'm sorry, hate me, I deserve it.

...To Be Continued~~~

Sorry I haven't been posting up lately!! I've been so busy, but finals are almost over so I can write more soon(: Hope you like this chapter~~have a good day!(: