Two Different Worlds

Chapter Twenty Seven ~ Until He's Over Me

Chapter Twenty Seven ~ Untile He's Over Me

" I walked away from him in tears. I didn't regret telling him that I wanted a break from him, it's just too much for me right now, I can't tell what's true and what's a dream. "

...Continued~~~

~KyungSoo's Point of View~

This is just too much for all of us. So much pressure and things going on to cause everyone sad and just not right. I don't know how to feel and I don't know if I should blame myself or anyone at all. Was it Rose? My aunt? or (YourName)? What am I possibly suppose to do? I can't just lay back and do nothing even if we're taking a break from each other. Everyone knows my aunt won't give up like that, I'm just scared something might happen in between this break, something that I will regret forever. Something that will change our lives. Not just mine but (YourName)'s as well and everyone around us. I just think this is too much for any of us and I really wish my aunt would stop, would stop playing these games. I wish my parents would help me and not just sit back and watch everything go wrong for me. Or do they even know that I'm going through all this? What am I suppose to do? Act like nothing happened? Chase after (YourName)? My aunt will be screaming at me when everyone leaves and when we're alone. That's not what I'm scared of, I'm scared of the evil tricks she has up her sleeves to ruin my life. On the outside she may seem really friendly and everything but on the inside, it's like a devil. Now that the wedding was ruined I'm so happy but now I have to apologize to everyone who came because it wasn't really fair for them to come and waste their time like this. I go back inside where everyone was.

KyungSoo: thank you all for coming today, I know I've upset a lot of you here, but love isn't something to force, don't you all agree? Without true love, where will you find your happiness? Love is our happiness, either love with friends, families, wife, husband, it's love that makes you so happy, and for my love life to be forced into marrying someone I don't love or someone I don't feel happy with, where is my happiness going to come from? What's the point of living if I didn't have happiness? I know accepting others for who they are is very important, and I accept Rose for being the Rose she is, but I odn't love her in that way. We're only classmates and if you can accept me as a friend or even a stranger, as long as you accept that I'm a human, i have feelings too, you should be able to accept my decisions. Agree? Now I don't know anymore, I don't want to blame anyone especially my aunt but we all wouldn't be here if it wasn't for her, we all wouldn't be wasting our time, we wouldn't be in so much trouble. But because of her selfishness, we're all in this problem. i really don't want to blame her and all of you are going to say how mean I am to do that to my aunt but that's only because she controls my life over everything. I have no right. I just broke up with my girlfriend and I love her so much, she was everything to me, before we would have to secretly find a way to get some time together, and it was really unfair because we should be able to be together in public and not secret. I don't want to be mean to my aunt in public because I respect her for being her so I will only tell you parts of what happened but not everything. Everything you need to hear is that my aunt didn't like (YourName) so she did everything to make us break up, we even acted out a scene that we broke up so my aunt would leave me alone, would give me my privacy back. We secretly dated till my aunt found out and forced me into this marriage. (YourName) didn't deserve all that pain because all she wanted was to be with me and I wanted to be with her as well. That was all we asked. But in the end, we broke up because of this. I don't know how to make (YourName) feel better or at ease because she broke up with me, telling me she needed time. I don't know if she'll ever dare to come back, knowing my aunt can do anything to the two of us, even if she loves me, she'll give up everything so I can be happy. Because she knows my aunt doesn't like her, she tries to not appear in front of her or be mentioned in front of my aunt, even when she really wants to come home with me and meet my parents. She doesn't want to make my aunt mad and be rude to me, she doesn't want me to get hurt, which makes me feel more in debt that I can't give her happiness the way she does for me. Oh I dearly apologize for wasting your time just right now, I just got really caught up, again sorry that this wedding was canceled. Please have a safe trip home.

I walked down the aisle, out the church, with tears rolling down my cheeks. Someone came up to me and gave me a big hug. I really needed that.

Aunt: Sorry everyone for KyungSoo's decision about the marriage. I know you all took the time to come and now it became nothing so special. Again thank you for coming.

My aunt came to me and whispered "KyungSoo, you're coming with me.." Rose came along and we went outside to talk as the people left. I can tell my aunt was mad and furious at me. I knew she wasn't going to give up because she is stubborn and because I've said so many things about her at first in front of everyone. She's not going ot be easy with me, she's not even going to be happy with me at all.

Aunt: KyungSoo, how dare you do such a thing. Talking bad about me in front of everyone, all our relatives and friends! I can let go of that but not maryring Rose is far too much!

KyungSoo: For you to force me into this marriage is too much!!

Aunt: I don't care what you say because you won't understand what I'm trying to do for you. I'm not going to give up until you're over her.

Suddenly, (YourNmae) appears and I run to hug her but she doesn't hug me back, my aunt yells at me as I yell back at her. I take (YourName)'s hand as I continue to argue with my aunt and Rose.

(YourName): Shut up!! Stop arguing, stop it! You are family and friends, I don't want you to ruin those relationships because of me. I don't want you to argue anymore, I don't want you to waste your time because of me. I'm tired of this, I'm tired of keeping things a secret, I'm tired of hiding, I'm tired of lying, I'm tired of trying to stay calm, I'm tired of hearing all this, I'm tired of thinking of ideas of how you would accept me, I'm tired of trying so hard when the results only end up to another fight, I'm tired of trying to be someone you want me to be, I'm tired from being in love, I'm tired of living. Aren't any of you tired? Waking up to thinking of how you'll avoid me from appearing in KyungSoo's life? Waking up to think how will this day go with KyungSoo not listening to you again? Aren't you tired of thinking so many questions in your head in the morning and night? Are you able to fall asleep like before without thinking of so many things? Why can't you all take a rest to think about it clearly and what will benefit us, everyone, not just one individually but all of us so that it can be fair. Have you ever thought of that? Instead of thinking what to do until he's over me, you can be relaxing or even go on a vacation, do something fun, spend some time with your family or friends. Why do you waste your every day life to do this, to ruin lives, to hurt others, to do something that isn't worth it. Money is nothing and I don't see why you will need so much, enough for us to survive is all we need, not any extra because our love, us being able to be together is enough happiness for me. I don't like to be greedy, but if you want money and if it allows me and KyungSoo to be together, I will work day and night, twenty four hours a day to earn you money, for you to spend. Is that better?

Everyone got quite after me ranting out. It felt better to express everything I felt inside because if they aren't tired of this, I am and I really need a break from this.

...To Be Continued~~~

Sorry sorry!! for not posting in like 2 days! I have finals coming up really really soon so I've been studying! I hope you like this chapter, thank you for reading!! <3