Two Different Worlds

Chapter Forty Seven ~ Hesitation

Chapter Forty Seven ~ Hesitation

" My heart hurts so much from crying and everything that was going on. That moment I just couldn't last any longer if I didn't have EXO by my side to love me and care for me. "

...Continued~~~

Chen: why don't you sleep here in the bed today, you're really tired from everything aren't you?

I hug Chen real tight.

Chen: everything will be fine, I promise.

Tears run down my cheeks as he pays my back.

Me: Chen.. It hurts so much

Chen: I know I know, don't think so much, go to sleep okay? Everything will be fine tomorrow

Me: no Chen, you don't get it

Chen: (YourName), I really do.

Me: Chen.. Will you bring me to the bar? Will you accompany me to drink?

Chen: if it makes you feel better, but don't drink so much beer.. it's not good for you

Me: I know, I won't

~ Author's Point of View~

That one night Chen accompanied her to drink. She drank bottle after bottle, wanting to forget all the pain and everything that caused her so to really hate herself and her life. Chen finally stopped her from drinking more. After drinking, she was really drunk. She starts hating herself about falling in love with KyungSoo, because she thinks that was the mistake where she started out with. But one day she'll realize.. where would so be without KyungSoo now? Without him, she'd be bullied to death.

~ My Point of View ~

Me: You know how hurt I am? After lie after lie, KyungSoo doesn't realize it at all. How much it means to me that he killed my family.

Chen: (YourName)..

Me: hah Chen.. Chen.. You know, you're always the one here for me, you're always to give me hugs and to comfort me. Tell me, did I fall for the wrong person? I was suppose to fall for you not KyungSoo.

I leaned to kiss Chen but he pushes me away. I grab him by the face and try to kiss him again but he turns away and pushes me back. I hug him tight by the waist and lean my head on his chest

Me: Chen don't leave me, please don't leave me. I love you

Chen: (YourName) don't be like this. I know you can't accept it but KyungSoo isn't the one who killed your family but I'm not the one you love..

Me: no! No! You don't know that, you don't have to say good things for him.

Chen: (YourName) you're really drunk.. I told you not to drink so much

Me: you're really funny..

Chen: I need to bring you home, you're really drunk, I don't want you to say things you don't mean

Me: haha I'm very aware of what I'm saying and I mean everything. I hate KyungSoo I hate him! For lying to me and hurting me, thinking he was my hero but he was only to bring me down again. Why do you all try to still be nice for him? His personality, I know very well now, I'm not going to trust him. Leave me alone! I don't need your help or his!

Chen: if you said you loved me, why would you push me away? I'm only trying to help.

Me: you're saying you love me back? Okay, forget about KyungSoo he doesn't have to know that we're dating.