Together by faith

Chapter 18.

I had possibly the worst day of my life today. All of my classes were torture and of course, Sebastian had to threaten me. I guess you can say that he's still angry about the fact that I kicked him out of his dorm. Well, what can I say? If it wasn't for Magnus, I would still probably live with that homophobic idiot. Speaking of Magnus. When I came back home after I had finished all of my classes today, he had made me food that stood hot and ready on the stove. Isn't he boyfriend material? I was beyond thankful that he had cooked me some delicious soup, but I would rather have him instead. You see, Magnus left for work sometime during the day. I still haven't learnt his schedule so if he hadn't left a note on the fridge, saying that he had a 4 hours shift down at the coffee shop, I would have freaked out. If I'm going to be honest, I didn't like the that he was working there. The fact that Raphael could show up any second and beat him to death in front of everyone, scared me more than I would like to admit. I know, I sound like an obsessive mother with her 3 years old son, but I can't help it. Magnus means too much to me. I have already nearly lost him once, I can't go through all that pain again. I haven't told anyone this, but a couple of nights ago, I had a nightmare. It was about the day when Magnus tried to take his own life. Only this time, I didn't make it in time. I was too late and they couldn't save him. I remember waking up with tears streaming down my cold cheeks and how I quietly walked over to Magnus room, only to see that he actually was laying there. I haven't told Magnus about the dream, and I probably won't do it either. I can tell that he feels bad about having me worried about him all the time, but what am I supposed to do? He's my boyfriend and i really care about him. I have all the reasons in the world to be worried, especially since he has a abusive stepfather that want to cause his life as much pain as possibly. Anyways, currently I was sitting in the living room, waiting for Magnus to return. The TV were playing some weird movie that I never had heard about before, but I wasn't really paying any attention. All I could think about was Magnus. I know that we have only been together for a short amount of time, but we have already kissed more times than I can count. That's everything we have done though. I mean, sex? How long time are we supposed to wait? Is it normal to have sex after just a couple of days? Maybe you guys don't remember, but I have never had a relationship before Magnus. Meaning, I'm still a virgin. That's right. I'm a 18 years old teenage male who hasn't had sex. Go ahead, laugh at me, I don't care. It's not like I could have had sex or anything. All my life, I have hidden my true identity. It was only a couple of months ago that my family found out that I was gay. What was I supposed to do? Sleep with a girl? No thanks. Since I'm not very experienced, I want everything to be perfect with Magnus. I don't want him to regret being together with me and I really want our first time to be something that I always will remember. Anyways, I was so deeply into my thoughts that I didn't notice that Magnus had returned from work and were now standing in the middle of the living room.
- I guessed that I would find you here. How was class today? He asked
- Horrible, I answered and sighed
Magnus came and sat down next to me on the couch. He had that beautiful smile on his face that made his eyes shine with happiness and all I wanted to do was kiss him. Damn, he's extremely stunning.
- Well, if it makes you feel any better, I spilled coffee all over one of my costumers today. I think I burned the poor old lady, Magnus said
- I would feel sorry for her if it wasn't so freaking hilarious, I answered and laughed out loud
The only thing I could see in my head was how that poor old lady screamed when the hot coffee got contact with her skin.
- I'm just happy that I don't get fired. One good thing with having Jocelyn as my boss is that he adores me
- Everyone adores you, Magnus, I said and smiled at him
Magnus smiled back at me and I couldn't stop myself any longer. I placed my lips on his in a breathtaking kiss that made my whole body shiver. My hands found Magnus hair and I could tell that he was enjoying every second of it.
- I have missed you today, I whispered when we broke to kiss
- I've missed you too, my dear Alexander. To be honest, I was scared to go back to the coffee shop today. I didn't want anyone to remember what happened yesterday with Raphael and all
- I wish I could have been there yesterday to protect you. I would never let Raphael hurt you in any way
- Alexander, if you would have been there, Raphael would probably have hurt you too. He doesn't care about anyone other than himself, Magnus answered
- I don't care. I would take a punch for you, Magnus Bane
- I didn't take you for the cheesy type, he said and smiled
I was just about to answer when my phone vibrated from my back pocket and what I read on the lock screen got me gasping for air. It was a text message from my mother, Maryse Lightwood.

[Maryse]
I know that we haven't talked in a very long time, but Thanksgiving is coming up and the family wants you to join us

[Alec]
Do I have to?

[Maryse]
Yes

[Alec]
Fine, I'll be there

Without looking up at Magnus, I could tell that he knew something was wrong. If I'm going to be honest, I didn't want to celebrate Thanksgiving with my family. I haven't met them, except Izzy, since my father screamed at me to get out.
- Alexander, what's wrong? Magnus asked and when I met his gaze, I could tell that he was worried
- M-my mother just texted me. She wants me home for Thanksgiving
- Is that good or bad?
- Bad. I haven't been home since my father Robert screamed at me to get out. When he found out I was gay, he didn't want me as his son anymore, I said and felt how a lump in my throat
- Alexander, I'm so sorry, Magnus answered and put his arms around me in a comforting smile
- I-I don't know what I did wrong. All my life, I have done everything to make my family proud over me. Why can't my father love me for who I am? I asked with tears were steaming down my cheeks
- It maybe doesn't seem like it, but they are proud over you. They gave birth to you and they have raised you. No matter what, you will always be their son and trust me, they will always love you
- I don't know, Magnus. They haven't even told me that they love me. Jace? They tell him that everyday, I whispered
- I love you, Magnus said
What he said almost made me choke on my own saliva. He love me? Magnus love me? I mean, I knew that he LIKED me but LOVE?
- W-What? I stuttered
- I love you, he repeated
I didn't know what to do. All my emotions were going wild and I felt like I was going to cry and laugh at the same time. The truth is, I love him too. Damn, I have never felt like this before.
- Magnus, I love you too, I answered
He smiled at me and before I got to say anything else, he kissed me like his life depended on it. The kiss was mixed with the Magnus wonderful scent and salted tears coming from me.
- How cliche aren't we? Magnus asked when we broke the kiss
- It could have been worse. We could have been standing outside in the rand, I answered and laughed
We stared at each other for a very long time, and I knew, the man in front of me was going to save me. We both have our pasts. We both have our stories, but it won't stop us. We are going to get through it all, together

Hey guys😇 How are you all? I know that chapter 17 also was in Alec's point of view and I usually switch them after each chapter, but I totally forgot and realised it when I was done writing🙈

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-Mathilda

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