Together by faith

Chapter 43.

When Alexander and I arrived back to his college dorm, I walked straight to my room and closed the door. I know, I was being extremely childish and unfair to Alec, but all I needed was some time alone. Meeting my father gave me so many different emotions and if I'm going to be honest, I don't know how I feel about him. Knowing that he actually cheated on my mum hurts more than I possible could imagine. Fine, my mum told me that I was a monster and that she hated me, but she was still my mother. She was still the one who gave birth to me and for that, I'm very thankful because otherwise I wouldn't have met Alexander. The thing is, I think that everything would have turned out a lot different if my dad didn't cheat on my mom because maybe then she wouldn't start taking out all of her anger and sadness on me and the best of all, if my dad never cheated on my mum, Raphael would never have been a part of my life, which means that I never would have tried to kill myself, twice.
- Magnus, please let me in, Alec's voice begged from the outside of the door
I didn't answer him, because I knew that if I would, I would only start crying. I laid down on my bed and buried my face in my extremely comfortable pillow.
- Baby, don't do this to me, Alexander said and I could hear on his voice that he was sad and probably very nervous
- I'm sorry, I whispered
- Look, I know that you're sad because of your father and everything that you got to know today is a lot to take in, but please don't push me away. I love you so much and it hurts when you're in pain
- I'm sorry, I repeated but this time a lot higher so Alec could hear me
- You have nothing to apologize for, baby. Please, let me in so I can hug you
I slowly stood up from the bed and walked over to the door. When I opened it, Alexander pulled me in for a hug and didn't let go until about 10 minutes later.
- I love you so much, he whispered
- I love you too, I said and felt how tears made their way down my cheeks
- Please don't ever push me away, Magnus. It hurts to see you in so much pain and knowing that I can't do anything about it, Alec said
- I'm sorry, Alexander. I just wish that things would have turned out a lot different. He didn't even know that my mother is dead, I answered and sighed
- I know, and that's stupid of him because he should know that, but Magnus, the most important thing is that he still loves you, so much
- What did I do to deserve this? First my father leaves me alone with a suicidal mother and a abusive stepfather. Then Raphael lies and tells me that he killed my father years ago and then suddenly he didn't kill him. Why couldn't I just get a normal family that cares about me? I asked and wiped my tears
- Normal is boring, Alec answered
Alexander pulled me in for one more hug and after that, he pressed his soft lips against mine in a passionate kiss.
- At least I have you, I whispered when we broke the kiss for air
- You'll always have me, Magnus
We walked together over to my bed where we laid down beside each other. Alexander put his arms around my torso and from time to time, he pressed light kissed against the back of my neck. In times like this, I actually feel save. Knowing that Alec actually cares about me for real and that he's not planning on leaving me, makes me want to scream out in pure happiness. Alexander is the most amazing person I ever have met and without him, I wouldn't have come this far in my life.
- What do you want to do tomorrow? Alexander asked after a while
- Sleep, I answered and yawned
- You're adorable
- I can't believe that our break is over soon. Only five more days and then we're back with classes and jobs, I said and sighed because honestly, I couldn't feel more disappointed
- Ugh, don't remind me, Alec answered and let out a quiet laugh
- Well, see things from the positive side. At least you'll graduate soon
- I can't wait. Seriously, it's going to be the second best day of my life
- What was the best day of your life? I asked and felt curious
- When I met you, Alec answered
- Alexander
I could feel how my whole face turned red and I tried to hide myself in the pillow but Alec saw how I struggled and started kissing my shoulders.
- I love when you blush, he whispered
- I don't, it's embarrassing
- No, it's hot, Alexander answered and bit his bottom lip
- Why do you have so weird kinks? I asked and laughed
- Says the guy who gets turned on when I spoke Italian
- Touché
We kissed for what felt like the hundred time this day and thereafter, we closed our eyes and fell asleep.

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