Broken

Chapter 16 - Home

Shawn's P.O.V

My plan is working. Cameron will suffer and so will Natalie. I think to myself.

Wiping Natalie's tears, I pretend to care about her, when really this girl is so pathetic.

"You will be okay. I love you and that's all that matters." I lied to her.

She sniffs a couple times and then goes to the bathroom, and she slammed the door shut.

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Natalie's P.O.V

Tears spill out of my eyes. I'm trying to stay strong and just have feelings for Shawn. But my feelings for Cam where just a little bit bigger.

I don't love you. ran through my head over and over again. Cameron doesn't love me anymore. I ruined it for me and I hate myself for that.

I run a hand through my hair, and start Pulling everything out of the bathroom drawers. I find the thing my body thought would help, grabbing the tiny razor I look at it and finally I push it against my skin.

No Natalie, stop.

My heart was telling me.

No do it for cam. Maybe he will love you when he sees it.

My mind was saying.

I didn't know if I should listen to my mind or my heart. But being the stupid person I am, I listened to my mind.

I take a deep breath and slid the razor across my wrist. I fall to the ground in tears watching the blood fall in the sink.

But I didn't stop just yet, I stood up and made another one, and another, till I finally I enough of the pain.

When I was finally able to breathe, I wash up the bloody mess. I look back down at my wrist.

Pathetic.

I heard a voice inside my head say, but I just ignored it and cleaned up the blood on my wrist.

I was glad I was wearing a long sleeved shirt that was big on me, so it could easily hide the cut marks.

My heart stopped once I heard a knock on the door.

"Natalie? what's taking you so long?" Shawn asked.

"Uh, nothing. I-I was just.. thinking. I'll be out in a moment." He sighed and I heard foot steps as he walked back to where he was.

I really hope he bought that. I not good at lying and people usually know when I am lying.

I look at myself one more time in the mirror before pulling down my sleeves and walking out of the bathroom.

I crawl back in bed with Shawn, and place my head on his chest.

The last words I thought before darkness took over me was;

I did this because I love him.

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Matt's P.O.V

Well it's time to go home, how I'm gonna miss these guys.

I sighed and turned to Nash's bed. I see he was already gone. I think to myself why haven't Carly and Nash do it yet, I mean they are waiting long enough, and everyone can see they wanna get into each others pants so why not do it.

Whatever non of my business.

I thought and just shrugged.

I hear laughing coming from the bathroom. I get up and Put my ear to the door. I hear Nash and Carly laughing. Busting in I say