Zephyr II
Mayrah had worked all day yesterday and this morning I woke up miserable, October Twentieth--my mother's birthday. I look in my drawer at the few items of hers I have. I grab my favorite picture of her and I and then laid back in bed to stare at it. Mayrah abruptly walks in the room and I hide the picture under my pillow and prop myself up on my elbows to look at her. I haven't really seen or talked to her since our fight the other night about me almost leaving her at the dinner table to talk to Ciro.
"Hi." Mayrah sighs looking at me and raising an eyebrow in suspicion. "What were you up to?"
"Nothing." I shake my head. "How are you?"
"Fine." She says clipped. "We got new technology at work and I was wondering if you wanted to use it."
I look at her confused. "What kind of new technology and use it on who?"
"No, Zephyr. The baby. We could find out the gender."
"Oh?" I stand up. "Is it safe?"
"Yep, The Violet Queen used it herself, although that's not the best example because it was partly wrong."
"I would love to find out now." I quickly nod my head.
"Okay, let's go." She stands in the doorway waiting.
I trail behind her all the way down to the healers. When we get there they explain to us how it works. I listen to every word of the instructions, but Mayrah just stands there tapping her foot--she probably already knows what to do considering she works here. They hand her the tonic to take and then direct her to the bathroom.
"Do you want me to come in with you?" I ask her.
Mayrah pauses for a moment. "Just...wait here...I'll show you...if you want."
"Oh. Okay." I nod my head and watch her shut the door to the bathroom. I wait impatiently going over different scenarios of whether it's going to be a boy or a girl. I can hardly take the anticipation until Mayrah opens up the door and suddenly I don't want to know anymore I'm so scared.
"It's a girl, it's pink." Mayrah points shaking.
I'm stunned. Am I even breathing right now? Gods Zephyr, breathe. I suck in air nearly choking. "A girl?" My voice waivers.
"Yeah we're having a girl." Mayrah begins to cry. "Gods, I'm so happy."
"Me too." I want to comfort her but I'm stuck in place shocked. "A daughter."
Mayrah nods and walks toward me to wrap he arms around my waist and bury her head in my chest.
I pet her hair and hug her back. "I love you, May."
"I'm sorry, Pumpkin. I-I needed the space...you hurt me." She frowns up at me.
"It's okay." I brush a piece of hair out of her face. "Thank you for letting me share this moment with you."
"It's our baby." Her frown deepens.
"I know, but you could've easily kept this moment to yourself, you're carrying her--not me."
"I'm not that selfish, Zephyr." She cries.
Nice going. "I know, I know." I hug her tighter. "I'm sorry."
"I think I should go..um...flush that now." She whispers wiggling her body away from mine.
My entire being is calling out to her, gods I swear it's been three days since we've had sex...maybe four. I wanted to kiss and hug her, just want to be close to her. I'm so happy over this news, yet I feel like I can't be happy. I watch her flush the toilet and then wash her hands. "Do you want to go back up to my room?"
