Byrd
Distraught. My heart broke into tiny pieces when Raidyn admitted to sending Romina a dream and having sex with her. I didn't understand how he didn't know it was wrong, he manipulated a dream for Romina to have sex. When we have dreams, the sex is so realistic that I'm woken up satisfied and fulfilled like he was actually inside of me. It makes me cringe that Romina had those feelings on the dream--he even made her release herself. Why would he even help Romina get her release, how does he not understand? Wouldn't he get jealous if I did that to a man friend? He doesn't understand.
"She is right." I sob. "Romina is right. I am clingy and I'm mean and I seek attention. I am a terrible wife! I was upset when we couldn't have sex, I almost forgot to take a tonic and got pregnant. I-I'm moody and pissy and I'm so horrible and privileged and spoiled, and this is why you cheated on me." I put my hands over my face.
"Woah," Raidyn raises his hands in a stopping motion, "I would never cheat on you. There's nothing going on between Romina and I. I was just pitying her, alright? I don't have feelings like this which is why it continues to be nothing to me. It doesn't matter to me at all, you matter."
"If I mattered you wouldn't of done that." I say distraught and hurt still. "That is cheating to me! You know how real those dreams are." I cry. "You mean to tell me when you're in those dreams you don't actually get turned on, the feel of her having sex with you isn't vivid or sexually satisfying?"
"No, because I know what's going on; I'm aware and manipulating the entire thing. It's just like you shifting honestly. It's pure deception."
"Oh okay, so I think I'll shift into Leona and have sex with Donovan." I cross my arms. "Doesn't count as cheating."
"Yes, that's actually doing something."
"No it's not, it's not my body." I shrug. "It would be Leona's body. Deception."
"But it would be you actually fucking him, not Leona."
I nearly rip out my hair. "As if it's a difference! This is so aggravating! How can you not see what you did is wrong."
"I just don't think it's a big deal because it meant nothing to me, I understand that you're upset and I'm sorry for what I did. I won't do it again, honestly I didn't think about how you would be so hurt and I'm sorry for that. It's all just nothing to me and I guess it's easy for me to get carried away in dreams I control- it's the only time I enjoy my manipulation and there's no consequences because nothing is real."
I wipe my nose and dry my eyes. "Fine. It wasn't real. I'll just get over it."
"No, be upset- do whatever. I apologized and it's all I can really do now, I didn't know you and Romina had a falling out."
"Even if we didn't I would still be upset." I rub at my forehead feeling a headache forming.
"I won't be dream-fucking anyone anymore. I got drunk in the dream and maybe that clouded my better judgement." He shrugs. "I'm still sorry, I only want you and i said it even then."
"That's the funniest thing you've ever said to me. Getting drunk in your dream clouded your judgement, while you keep saying it's just a dream it wasn't real, or but getting dream drunk was all so real that it clouded your stupid dream judgement."
"Yeah, you're right. I think that is the stupidest thing I've ever said. I got drunk and was thinking about everything and I think I just got carried away with the manipulation- it's hard to describe your power and what it does to your body, you know? I don't know how to explain myself to you, Byrd, but it didn't mean anything."
