My Skin On You

he finds out

I look for you in the center of the sun
I took a pill but it didn't help me numb
I see your face even when my eyes are shut
But I never really know just where to find you
I taste the words that keep falling out your mouth
You got a logic I can never figure out
If I could hold you then I'd never put you down
But I never really know just where to find you

Where to find you
Where to find you
But I never really know just where to find you
Try, try, try, but I
Try, try, try, but I, but I
Try, try, try, but I
But I never really know just where to find you

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After the song
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After ellen i changed into (pic above)
I went home i packed my bag and flew to canada for the weeknd
Justins pov "go pick up noah at the air port "my dad told me "what no why" i asked "because i said so" he told me "ill go" my stepmom says

Back to me

"Go where" i asked "noah" my mom hugs me tight she noticed the weight loss she lets go "are you eating you look thin" she asked "yes i eat" i lied "how much do you weigh" she asks "100 pounds" i told her

Jeremey hugged me then looked at justin "hi" he said "hi" i told him "um this is selena gomez my girlfriend" he told me i bit my tongue then let go "i know i watched her on barney when i was little" i told them "oh" he said "bye" i told me and walked upstair and into the guest room i locked the door

Justins prov

"Im telling you jeremey a hundred pound is not good for a 5'6 teenager i dont think shes eating when i hugged her i could feel her bones" my stepmom told me

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I changed into my pajamas (#2) and took my makeup off and took my contacts out put my  glasses on and put my hair in a ponytail i walked downstairs "hey come watch a movie with us" selena says "what are you watching" i asked "the notebook" she told me "sure" i told her
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We were cooking  "justin help" my mom said "fine" he said "wheres selena" i asked "she left she has to shoot her movie" he told me

I was wearing (pic above #3)

We were eating well they were "eat something" my mom said "im gonna go outside and eat" i told them i went outside the front door shut the door and threw the food in the garbage can i looked up justin was staring at me "why did you do that" he asked i gulped "you dont eat do you" he asks i didnt say anything

"i do sometimes but" i quietly said "then you throw it up right" he asked i stared at him then nodded the tears came down my face "why?" He asked "when you released my songs  people commented on my instagram and told me i should stick to modeling and i cant sing then i posted a selfie and they called me fat,

a slut and whore, they told me i get cancer and die and i stopped eating at first then i ate and felt guilty so i threw it back up" i explained to him "this is my fault" he said "no justin no its not its mine if i never met you if i never liked you

if i never wrote those songs if i never became a model if i was never born none of this would be happening" i cried he wrapped his arms around my neck i wrapped my arms around his waist and cried

"I cant do this anymore i want it to stop i need a break" crying into his chest for a while then i wiped my eyes and looked at him "then take a break" he told me "thank a break from music, take a break from everything and eat something" he told me "its not that easy" i told him "then whatever its takes please be happy again" he told me

Justin held his hand out "ill be there for you" he told me