My Skin On You

bulimia

We walked back into the house "did you eat" my mom asks i looked at justin then at her "no mom i didnt i cant" i told her "what are you talking about you cant" she asked "im 
bulimic justin released my music people were commenting on my instagram

telling me i should stick to modeling and i cant sing they called me fat, pathetic a slut and whore, they told me i get cancer and die so i stopped eating at first then i ate and felt guilty so i threw it back up and its been going on for a long time" i cried i let of justins hand

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One month later
Ive been at my house for a month and i still throw up when i eat i thought i could do it on my own but i cant so yesterday i started therapy i told everyone i needed a break i logged off my social media accounts and i told kiara

or scooter not to book anything for a long time i cleaned my house i went shopping  i basically was in hiding though my therapy was to eat something to eat meat so i did i tried to eat yesterday but i threw it up so today im asking justin to come overI texted him

Me:Do you want to come over for dinner

Him: sure ill be over in a while

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Justin arrived i am wearing (pic above)

I answered the door and let him in "hi" i told him "hi" we hugged i made him a plate and myself a plate then i set the small table and we sat down "how are you" he asks "um well i thought i could do it on my own but i couldn't so i went to therapy and eating is part of therapy but someone has to make sure i keep it down" i explained "so you invited me" he asked i nodded i ate a bite slowly "hows selena" i asked "we broke up 3 weeks ago" he told me "oh im sorry" i told him

"Its whatever" he told me

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It took me an hour to eat justin was watching tv in the family room i walked over to him and sat down on the couch "what time is it" he asked "8" i told him "you wanna watch a movie" he asked "sure wait" i told him i ran upstairs and changed into (pic above #2) and then walked back downstairs I sat down on the couch justin picked a movie and we started watching it

"This is a scary movie justin i don't like scary movies" i told him he smiled i crawled closer to him and wrapped my arms around his waist and covered us with a blanket there was this scary part i screamed and hid my face in his chest

20 minutes later I was hiding in his chest "justin turn it off I'm scared" i told him he turned a different movie on, the notebook we started watching it we got to the part where he pushes her up against the wall kissing her i was uncomfortable i looked at justin i stared at him he looked at me he was staring at me he leaned in closer i looked away "we cant" i told him "why not" he said "because your my stepbrother it's wrong" i told him "you never thought that before" he told me

"Yes i have" i told him "come on" he said he leaned in and kissed me passionately then deepened the kiss I sat up and straddled him without breaking the kiss he pulled away shook off my shirt threw it then continued the kiss i pulled away "justin no stop" i told him and got off him and put my shirt back on "what" he asked "we can't i don't want to" I told him "what" he asked "im not ready" i told him "you're a virgin" he asked i nodded he smiled we continued watching the movie

I fell asleep

Movies over its 11 o'clock I'm sleeping on justin

Justin's pov

I tried to move without waking Noah up but that didn't work "where are you going" she groaned in response tiredly "its 11 i was going home" i told her she looked at me she kissed me passionately then pulled away