My Skin On You

divorce

Almost 2 years later I'm wearing (pic above)

Austin is 4 years old and her brother Dallas is almost 2 year old
Justin and i have been fighting so much lately i dont know why we havent even had sex in 3 months i feel bad but im busy and he is to and we havent had time alone in 3 months so i could see why we would be fighting

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"MAYBE WE SHOULD GET A DIVORCE ALL WE EVER DO ANYMORE IS FIGHT IM TIRED OF IT" he screamed i broke down in tears i wiped them "You wanna divorce you got it, you wanna go, go, go ahead

and leave finally im done, after everything we've ever been through together you want to throw it all away go ahead" he didnt say anything " who is she" i asked "what?" he asked

" who's the girl you're willing to give everything up for risk everything for even your relationship with your kids?" i asked him "what there is no girl, im tired of fighting with you" he told me " and you think a divorce is going to solve that problem if anything it will make it worse" i cried

"You wouldn't even try to make it work for youre kids.......for me" i cried "I'VE BEEN TRYING I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE WE DONT EVEN HAVE SEX ANYMORE..im sorry noah but this isnt working anymore" he told me "then we try something different i love you we dont always fight" i cried

"lately thats ill we do and i dont want to fight with you anymore im sorry"

"Sorry? but After everything you've ever put me through, YOU PUT ME THROUGH HELL AFTER I WANTED TO BE WITH YOU EVEN AFTER YOU BROKE ME AFTER YOU CHEATED ON ME WHEN I WAS STARVING MYSELF AFTER I ALMOST DIED AND MY WHOLE FAMILY AND ALL OF MY FRIENDS HATED YOU I FOUGHT TO BE WITH YOU

AFTER I ALMOST ENDED MY LIFE BECAUSE OF YOU I STILL WANTED YOU AFTER I PUT UP WITH ALL YOU'RE BULL SHIT, I GAVE YOU SO MANY Fuckihg CHANCES I WENT AGAINST MY MOTHER TO BE WITH YOU I GAVE YOU ANOTHER CHANCE AFTER YOU ACCUSED ME

OF LYING ABOUT NOT WANTING A BABY I CARRIED YOUR CHILDREN IN ME FOR NINE MONTHS I BAILED YOU OUT OF JAIL AFTER YOU GOT A DUI WHEN I HAD A BOYFRIEND I CAME TO GET YOU BECAUSE YOU NEEDED ME, HE'LL RUIN YOUR LIFE THEY TOLD ME BUT I STILL TOOK YOU BACK I DIDNT GET AN ABORTION LIKE I WAS GOING TO BECAUSE YOU TOLD ME NOT TO YOU, I HAVE GIVEN YOU CHANCE

AFTER CHANCE AFTER CHANCE AND THIS IS WHAT YOU DO TO ME YOU KNOW THEY ALWAYS SAY CELEBRITY MARRIAGES NEVER LAST AND I ALWAYS THOUGHT THAT WE WOULD PROVE THEM WRONG

BUT MAYBE THEY'RE RIGHT..YOU WANT A DIVORCE JUSTIN YOU GOT IT GOODBYE BUT JUST KNOW THAT YOU WILL NEVER FIND SOMEONE WHO PUTS UP WITH YOUR BULL SHIT OR LOVES YOU MORE THAN

I DO BUT YOU DONT GET TO JUST WALK AWAY I DO I GET TO WALK AWAY YOU PUT ME THOUGH HELL BUT YOUR THE ONE ALWAYS WALKING AWAY AND AFTER ALL THESE YEARS IM DONE IM FINALLY DONE IM THE ONE WHO GETS TO WALK AWAY WITH OUR KIDS YOU

WANT TO SEE THEM TO BAD MAYBE YOU SHOULD OF THOUGHT ABOUT THAT BEFORE YOU WANTED A DIVORCE" I yelled i got my kids and left i drove somewhere i dont know where locked the doors and broke down in tears

2 months later
I released an album my first album since before Austin was born its called patience
There are 16 songs and 2 bonus so 18. I wrote all of them (not really its for the story)

1. No Goodbyes (dua lipa)

2. For You (Rita Ora)

3. Into it (Camila Cabello)

4. For Now (P!nk)

5. But We lost it (P!nk)

6.Act Like You Love Me (Shawn Mendes)

7.lonely Together (Rita Ora)

8. You Don't Know (Justine Skye)

9. Patience (Shawn Mendes)

10. Consequences (Camila Cabello)

11. Take Me Home (Jess Glynne)

12. I am Here (P!nk)

13.I Don't Believe You (P!nk)

14. Never Be The Same (Camila Cabello)

15. Please Don't Go (Joel Adams)

16. All These Years ( Camila Cabello)

*Bonus*

17. Skin (Rihanna)

18. I Miss You (Juila Michaels)