My Skin On You

Skin

"Noah what do you mean" he asked "me and you, Justin i like you and I have for a long time but I knew what I felt inside was wrong, it was wrong to feel to have feelings for your

stepbrother and i wasn't going to tell you when I didn't understand what was happening so I wrote skin and then when you wouldn't answer your phone i got upset and I wrote Redial they weren't supposed to be heard by anyone but me" i cried i wiped my tears and looked up at him he was crying

"Say something" i told him "I don't know what you want me to say selena makes me happy and I'm sorry i don't want to hurt you but I'm happy" he walked away He left i broke down in tears again so I wrote another song called crybaby (Melanie Martinez)

2 months later I'm focusing on my modeling career I made 20 million on vogue 10 millionon puma I'm still working with puma and I'm now working with prada I'm building the building for my Foundation The Butterfly Effect i designed the logo and made other things for it like shirts and stuff Kiara is renting a home

with 3 bedrooms now instead of zero and has made 50,000 dollars so far scooter offered me a record deal i told him I'd think about it i mean music is my life and I love and those songs went number one i called him and told him I'd take the offer

He got me a vocal coach, a makeup artis, a hairstylist and a road manager and all these people for a team to make me famous i signed the record deal then he said find your inspiration and write 20 songs about it so I started writing about Justin I was writing for 3 hours and I wrote 3 songs

1. Ruin The Friendship (Demi Lovato)

2. Only Forever (Demi Lovato)

3. Roses (Shawn Mendes)

I got stuck on some of the words but I did it

I wrote 2 songs

4. How that taste (kehlani)

5. Find you (Nick Jonas)

I am using crybaby as one of the 20 songs i looked at my instagram i unfollowed justin i posted a picture of the microphone in my recording studio i made it black and white then posted it with no caption

2 weeks later I released another song and wrote 20 songs and showed them to scooter and now we're working on an album I got more hate comments at I tried to ignore them but that didn't work i read more of them

I read comments

Everyone hates you

Ugh you discuss me

Ugly

You can't even do your job right

Stick to Modeling

Fat ass

No tits

You can only imagine what it's like to me pretty

Go die

Pathetic ass bitch

Attention seeking thot

Where's your pole

Chewbacca what's up

Whore

YOUR MOM SHOULD HAVE SWALLOWED YOU

YOUR WORTHLESS

YOU'RE PUSSY SMELLS LIKE FISH

KILL YOURSELF

Fag

Sack of shit

You're so perfect.....haha is that the lie you tell yourself

I was crying Balling my eyes out but I couldn't stop reading

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I went to a puma photoshoot

1 month later I made an album I didn't release it yet I'm not done yet either I finished my photoshoots and I'm still working with prada

I'm was sitting at the counter at house talking to me mom on the phone "what do you want to do" she asked "i don't know......" i told her "people like me, and don't want to disappoint or hurt anyone but I can't do this some people hate me and comment all day long and I try so hard to forget it but I can't and i honestly feel like shit "i don't know what I'm doing normally I would talk to Justin about this but I haven't spoken to him in like 3 months" i told her "call him" she told me

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I'm lost i became bulimic and i lost 20 pounds bulimia is a eating disorder where you eat but you feel guilty then throw it up or take laxatives which I do both