My Skin On You

keeping the baby

  "you dont know maybe the tests are wrong" she told me "No i know" i cried "the doctor called me" i cried "well your ready for this you waited your whole life to be a mom you love kids" she told me "i wanted a baby in the future with justin this isnt what i meant, i wanted us to be married im not ready for a baby i wanted to go on tour i had my whole life planned out and its ruined i cant do this khloe what do i do, im scared" i cried

Justins pov my heart broke hearing the pain in noahs voice "you can do this i believe in you" she told her "no i cant, i think im getting an abortion, i told justin i was" i told her "um i dont believe in abortion and i dont think justin would like that" she told her

Back to me "its not really justins choice its mine and hes gone hes been gone for a week and he never tried to call or anything so he doesnt care" i told her "i do care dont" i heard him shout i hung up

8 weeks pregnant
I released 2 singles that i wrote bad bitch (bebe rexha) and goodbyes (sam smith)
Justin had been calling me non stop i have been talking to khloe and khloe i think has been talking to him, i know he cares but this is my decision and im not ready for a baby
I told khloe that im not ready and i believe everything happens for a reason and a baby right now isnt right and im wearing (pic above #1) im trying to hide my bump its not showing alot yet but you can kind of tell

Anyways im at the clinic its technically closed its sunday afternoon so im here by myself  i have looking and researching abortion online and im absolutely positively sure that I do not want to do it but i have to im not ready and i cant do it i cant raise a baby

Justins pov i was at khloes "shes not answering any my calls or texts i want to raise a baby with her i want to marry her and im afraid it might be to late" i told her "shes there now justin if you want to stop her go now stop her, if you really care go get her" she told me "what" i asked

"Shes at the abortion clinic right now go get her justin, go stop her" she told me  i grabbed my keys and ran outside and drove to the abortion clinic my heart was racing but i had to stop her i was 5 minutes away in the parking lot from the building when i parked got out and ran as fast as i could to stop the love of my life from killing my baby, our baby

Back to me
i was ready to go back when justin ran into the building out of breath "dont do it" he yelled i stood up  "Justin what are you doing here" i asked He tried getting his breath back to normal "dont do it, dont kill our baby please you cant, im sorry i care, i care so much i love you and our baby, and you said its not my choice but it is because it effects

me too and you love kids, and now you get to have one, im sorry i thought you were lying, im sorry i walked away i should of fought for you, but this is me fighting, im not just gonna walk away i want us to be a family, thats my baby too and im not letting you make a big mistake i know you want to keep it because i know you, and being a mom is everything youve ever wanted dont go through with it" he explained to me "okay" i told him "what?" He said

"Okay" i told him he smiled i went home he got his stuff and came home

2 days later im sick all the time im tired all the time i threw up four times in the night and justin held my hair back  i made an appointment for the doctors our first appointment so were going today i got ready in (pic above #2)