Spring Day

Chapter 22

'It's always been Namjoon and it always will be.'

Jae's eyes didn't leave yours as you spoke those words and his arms didn't release you for the prison he'd unintentionally trapped you in. Your feet began to shuffle slightly and your eyes begged him to let you go. However the look in his eyes told you that on his part that wasn't possible yet. He needed to let your words seep into his bones before he could let you go. An action that unfortunately mirrored the emotions you were also asking him to release.

'Y/N...I...' He began but he was chocking on his words.

You were struck suddenly by how quickly this had all happened. Jae had always been overly attentive at work and you had half guessed that he had a small crush on you but you had never realised the magnitude of those feelings. Your heart hurt for him, it hurt that you were the one doing this to him, but you didn't have a choice. Your heart didn't belong to him.

'Jae, I should go back in. They'll be wondering where I am.' You pushed away from the wall slightly and began to duck under his arm.

'Not yet,' He whispered and placed his hands on your shoulders, forcing you back into place. 'Why does it have to be him?' He asked, anger and jealousy evident in his tone. A red flag began to flash in your mind and you knew you needed to shut this down, and quickly.

'Jae, Namjoon is my boyfriend and I love him. I'm sorry that I never told you about him but that's the way it is.' You purposely placed an assertive twang to your voice in order to make your words as strong as possible.

Suddenly Jae's arms weren't on your shoulders anymore, they were around your waist, pulling you close to him.

'I know, I know that. But just give me a minute okay?' You nodded into his chest and stood as still as you could while he worked through whatever he was feeling. After a few minutes he took his arms from around you and began to walk away without as much as a second glance.

'Bye Jae,' You whispered.

'Y/N!' He shouted suddenly as you began to open the door.

'Hmm...' You hummed in reply, looking at him quizzically as he turned around for a second to look at you one last time.

'Tell him he best look after you. No one is allowed to hurt the girl I love.' He turned to walk away again but before he did you were certain you saw the faint glitter of tears in his eyes.

 You walked slowly back into your apartment and closed the door faintly behind you. Namjoon and Jin looked up at you as soon as they heard the catch click.

'Y/N?' Namjoon whispered lightly upon seeing you. You rose your gaze to meet his. A wave of emotion flurried over you all at once and suddenly you were sinking to the floor in a fit of quiet sobs. 'Y/N? What happened?' Namjoon stood quickly and hurried to your side, holding your cheeks gently in his hands and searching your eyes for an answer.

'I don't even know.' You sobbed and placed your hand over his wrist, squeezing it slightly for some sort of support. You pushed your face closer into his hand, his warmth calming your bustling emotions. 'I'm just so overwhelmed by today.' You whispered finally as your sobs subsided and you could finally look up at Namjoon without tears blurring your vision.

'I know. Sorry, I suppose I'm mostly to blame for that. He didn't do anything to upset you though did he?' Namjoon asked nodding towards the door.

'No.' You replied simply shaking your head.

'Okay.' Namjoon chose to leave it there for now, he knew best then to push you into talking about things that were warping your emotions like this. You would talk when you were ready and he'd be there to listen just like always.

'Y/N?' A soft voice broke the sudden silence between you and Namjoon and you looked up to see Jin smiling fondly down at you. 'Is it okay if I use your shower? I didn't get time after the concert and I feel really gross.' He laughed and rubbed the back of his head.

'Yeah Jin, of course you can.' You mirrored his fond smile and pointed to the door of which the bathroom lay behind. He nodded in reply and made his way over to it. 'There's towels and stuff in there so just use what you need.'

'Thanks Y/N.' He bowed slightly to you and closed the bathroom door behind him.

The air suddenly felt heavy without Jin's presence and your chest begun to ache due to the sobs that had just been running wild there.

Namjoon wiped the last few tears from your cheeks and you stood together before walking over to the sofa.

You sat down, crossed your legs and lent your back against one of the arms of the sofa, studying Namjoon's side profile thoroughly as he sat down next to you.

'What?' He asked, questioning your stare.

'Im just trying to comprehend where the side of you that acts like that towards my friends came from.' You knew that this was what your little breakdown had been about when you had reentered your apartment. For the first time you had seen a side of Namjoon that you weren't sure you liked. For the first time you had seen him being rude and obnoxious, characteristics that were so far from his personality that they might as well of been from a different planet.

But then had Namjoon seen Jae's feelings for you from the beginning?

'He definitely doesn't think your just friends. I'm the only one whose allowed to look at you like that.' He crossed his arms across his chest in a way that reminded you of a small child and you couldn't help but smile a little at how cute that was.

'Are you jealous?' You asked, slightly amused at the concept. Namjoon shot you a look that told you to drop the subject. 'Seriously Namjoon? How can you be jealous of him? I'm all yours, I promise. No matter how far away you are, I'm always yours.'

A small smile graced Namjoon's lips and he turned to look at your properly. 'I know that, but it's hard when I'm not with you. I can't protect you. And the one thing I need to do is protect you.' He placed his hand on your knee and traced small circles there with his thumb, electrifying your heart with such a small action.

'I can look after myself oppa.' You said teasingly. His cheeks flushed at your use of 'oppa' and he looked away suddenly.

'You've been watching to many dramas.' He breathed and you could almost hear his heart racing from even this distance.

'Well I didn't want my Korean to get rusty.' You moved closer to him and placed your head on his shoulder.

'Hmm...' He mumbled, but placed his arm around you and pulled you closer to him.

You closed your eyes and enjoyed the moment. You still weren't happy with how Namjoon had acted but part of you understood. You wouldn't be too happy if some random girl was around him all the time either.

'We good?' Namjoon asked suddenly, tightening his arm around you to bring you even closer.

'Always,' You said looking up at him with a smile.

Both of you heard Jin clear his throat and you looked up at him.

'Erm....did you shower Jin? Your hairs not even wet!' You said, confused by his appearance.

He rubbed the back of his head again and looked away. 'Well I didn't actually shower, I thought I best give you two some time to talk.'

'Jin! What have you been doing in there then?' Namjoon asked.

Jin shrugged. 'Watching YouTube on my phone I guess. But the battery died and I guess I gave you long enough.' He held up his phone to show you and laughed a little at himself.

'Jin.' You whispered his name affectionately and felt lucky to have such a selfless man on yours and Namjoon's side.