The DarkNess Within Him | ✔

Chapter Thirty Five - Part 2

I stare up at him for a long while, unsure what to say when I stop dancing. A part of me wants to ask what exactly he means by that statement but the other part is too taken aback by what he said to even react.

So I don't. I just keep looking at him when my hands fall from his neck and down to my sides. He keeps his eyes firm against me and takes his own hands away from my hips, the whole while I watch his lips tighten.

The silence stretches to discomfort.

"You won't say anything?" He echoes lowly. "You accuse me of not knowing what I want and now, I give you a straight answer. I want you and you won't even speak?"

I clamp my lips together at the same time my gaze falters to the low wedged heels on my feet. I focus on that when I hear his sharp intake of breath which prompts my head up. By the time I look up, he's walking away from me.

I weave through the dancing crowd after him, noticing that Kian isn't standing by his father and his father is talking to mine with a serious demeanour. When he looks at me, he frowns deeply. I ignore him. My only focus is Matthew as I chase him. Despite the fact that he knows that I'm right behind him, he doesn't stop until we get to the mansion.

Even indoors, he doesn't stop and I call out to him as he begins up the stairs. He ignores me and his strides are long as he keeps climbing so in spite of the aches in my feet, I follow behind.

Matthew doesn't stop until he gets to the rooftop.

The rooftop of my house is a place I never visit.

It's breezy, the air is humid and I look at Matthew who goes towards the railing overlooking the edge until he's dangerously close to it. I refuse to move though. I don't come up here for a reason. I have a fear of heights and the drop is a long one.

"If you told me that you wanted me, Matt, I'd say you only want me because you're losing me to Kian and you don't want that," it's all I say between our barrier of wet air and several feet.

I hear him sigh but he doesn't turn, instead, he plants both hands on the railing and hunches forward.

"I want you to choose me because it's what you want, I'm what you want. Because it's a choice you would make if Kian wasn't in the picture. I don't want you to say you want me when what you really want is not to lose me," he doesn't speak or move, he just remains there staring into nothingness as I in turn, stare at the back of his black jacket.

When he speaks, he says, "what about you, Kay? What do you want? "

"Doesn't matter," I shake my head adamantly. "There are only two truths. I'm an Alpha and I'm a woman. Assuming I say no to Alpha Brian, do you think things will end there? Aside from me, my brother and Alpha Brian, there are thirteen other Alphas and they are all men including my mate! Do you think that at least one of them isn't at some point going to propose to me? Really? I'm not stupid. They're waiting, they will. Some Alphas are ambitious people who care more about their heirs than they're very own pack. I can deal with Alpha Brian. I can handle him but what if the next Alpha that comes is as tyrannical or manipulative as Kai and I happen to be desperate? Do you think that I haven't considered all of this? You may call this a mistake but it may actually be one of the wisest decisions I may ever get the chance to make."

It's fast when Matthew turns and I see that his eyes are darker than midnight death. I gulp when his hands leave the railing and clutch at his side.

"Everything you just said is filled with fear," he walks towards me with slow steps now and my heart starts to pound in my chest. I look at him, not knowing what to expect and then, I start matching his steps in a backward direction until my back hits the hard concrete wall. He stops before me and then pokes the centre of my chest three times with his index finger. "You're not marrying Kian because it's what you want. You're marrying him because you're afraid of something."