Look Away, Ignore the Pain

Chapter 7: Just One More Day Won't Kill You

~Kaitlynn’s Point of View~

God… this is the last time I’m ever taking those fucking meds. I thought as I clutched to my head in pain. The light penetrated through the window and right into my eyes, which hurt even more. Funny, I don’t remember it being this bright when I came home from the park. Wait, what time is it? I sat up in my bed, but my stomach still hurt a lot from Hannah and Anna’s kicks. I blindly reached for my mobile on the nightstand to check for the time and choked when I saw it. It was 10:08 in the morning, more specifically – Monday morning! It was Sunday when I went to the park and got out of bed at two something in the afternoon. My heart started to beat insanely fast and a wave of panic washed over me in such a bad hit that I couldn’t breathe right. I forced my eyes shut and pinched the bridge of my nose, trying to calm down. After a minute or so, I returned to my mobile. I had 5 missed rings from Dad and two others from a number I didn’t recognise. Nonetheless, I rang Dad back.

“Kaitlynn!” he exclaimed and sounded very relieved.

“I’m so sorry! I didn’t realise the time and I just… I’m so sorry!” I blabbered out and eventually just broke down crying.

“Katy, sweetheart, it’s alright. Are you feeling any better? Niall told me you were ill, so that’s why you went to bed so early yesterday.” I thought for a minute if I saw Niall at all yesterday, but only got to the conclusion that I haven’t even seen him since the interview he made about the whole siblings thing. Was Niall covering for me?

“Uh… yeah. I feel loads better.” I lied and examined my wrists, but there was nothing much to see now. The cuts I made didn’t end up so deep.

“Well, just take it easy for today and rest. Don’t worry about school.” He said with a warm smile in his voice. “Go make yourself something to eat, yeah?”

“I will. Thanks, Dad.” I said with a slight smile. He was just about to hang up, but I had to ask just one more thing. “Hey Dad?”

“Yeah?”

“Is Niall… still here?” I asked shakily. I don’t know why, but I suddenly had a strong wave of courage to see him. I figured I might as well try to get on his good side if I’m going to London with him.

“I think he left an hour ago to go to your mam’s.” Dad said sadly. I pouted slightly. “Did he ring you yet? He said he would.”

“I think he did. Did he change his number?” I asked. I mean, I did get two missed rings by an unknown number.

“He said he had to, because too many people had his number and things were getting crazy.” Dad laughed quietly and I had to give out a small smile.

“Did you talk to him yet about London?” I asked quietly.

“Everything is waiting for you, Katy. Don’t worry about anything but your final exams.” He replied with an obvious smile to his voice and I couldn’t help but smile myself.

“I love you, Dad.” I said suddenly. I have never heard him say it to me and I stopped trying to get a response about a year ago, when I stopped trying to say it myself. Even this time, he didn’t respond.

“I have to go to a meeting now. I’ll see you later tonight.” And he hung up. I sighed and blinked back a few tears. It’s not like I am not used to not hear “I love you” or anything, it’s just that I want to hear it from time to time. Even Greg stopped saying it about a year ago. Greg! I thought and immediately dialled away at the mobile.

“Hello?” he answered after the fourth ring.

“Hey.” I said with a slight smile.

“Lynn.” He said simply. “I can’t really chat right now; I’m at Mam’s house and everyone’s here. Sorry.” And he, too, hung up. Why doesn’t anyone want to chat with me? I shrugged those thoughts away and got out of bed to the kitchen. My stomach still hurt, but it wasn’t as bad as I remembered it.