Look Away, Ignore the Pain

Chapter 23: Flight Fright

~Kaitlynn’s Point of View~

It was 21st of December now, which means the lads of 5 Seconds of Summer were going to be here in London tomorrow. Actually, they were going to be here in less than 20 hours. Louis and Harry still had no idea, but I know Liam and Zayn know. Niall and I are going to pick the lads up from the airport tomorrow at noon and bring them to their hotel for the next two days. I have no idea, though, how are they not going to create any headlines with all of them packed in one hotel in the heart of London. I could suggest them splitting to different places and sleeping in different hotels, but they’ll never agree…

I took my pill, but it was the last one in the container. I have to go back to the person from a few months ago tomorrow morning. I thought sadly to myself. Going back to the alleys of London wasn’t one of my plans. Nevertheless, I had to get those pills, because they helped me sleep for a whole night straight. Ashton actually seemed much happier whenever I texted or rang him ever since I took the first pill.

“Katy, you awake?” Niall asked behind my closed door. Since all the lights were out except for the small one I used when I was sleeping, I guess he assumed I was asleep already. I could never sleep without any light on ever since the day we went to Nana’s house about 3 years ago. I know I’m already 17, but I can’t fall asleep in the total darkness and I am terrified of the dark. Stupid, I know.

“No, you can come in.” I said after tucking the pill bottle away.

“I just wanted to ask if you want to go home for Christmas…” he mumbled quietly and sat at the edge of my bed. I gave him a sad expression to which he just returned a small smile. “Hey, you stay here, okay?”

“And you?” I asked in a horrified tone. There’s no way I’m staying here alone!

“You’re 17, I think you’ll be fine.” He laughed, but I could tell he wasn’t as happy about this whole idea. “Look, you know just as well as I do that coming back home may not be such a great idea for you…” we both sighed and sat in silence for a while.

“I don’t know. Wait, you’re not going to be here for Louis’s birthday?” I asked. He laughed and shook his head, but not like he was saying no.

“It’s Christmas Eve, Katy. We’re all goin’ for lunch to Nando’s and the 5SOS lads will surprise Lou there. Paul will bring them once we’re all seated and stuff.” I smiled at the thought of that, but felt my stomach turn in anticipation and fear. I feared they wouldn’t like me as much as they seemed to on Skype.

“And then you’re going back home…” I added quietly with my head hung low and my gaze fixed on my fumbling fingers.

“And then I’m goin’ home.” He confirmed with a long sigh. I felt the pills kicking in and I didn’t want Niall to notice anything, but I won’t see him for at least a week. I won’t see him for my birthday… not that there’s anything special about my birthday. I’m only going to be 17 and I haven’t ever celebrated it.

“When are we leaving tomorrow?” I asked through a really long yawn.