Look Away, Ignore the Pain

Chapter 17: Princess Kathy

~Niall’s Point of View~

I glanced at the clock on the wall and panicked when I saw the time was past noon, but then I remembered our flight isn’t until tonight. Still, Katy was still asleep and still looked as pale as she was yesterday. I decided to make some breakfast, or well… lunch, and wake her up when it’s ready. I slowly got up, careful not to wake her up or make her uncomfortable, but I failed with that and her left arm fell from its position on her stomach and she hissed in her sleep when her arm touched the couch. What the hell? I watched Katy in bewilderment as she slowly fluttered her eyes open and brought her pained arm back to her protective right arm.

“Good morning, love.” I said with a smile. She seemed terrified and drew back, shielding her face with her bent knees. “Katy, is everything okay? You scared the living shit out of me last night.”

“N-N-Niall?” she stuttered as if she didn’t even expect me to be alive.

~Kaitlynn’s Point of View~

Wait… if Niall’s here and talking to me and my arm hurts like shit, then I’m… alive. I’m alive! Oh thank God! But why do I have a feeling of failure? Why do I feel like I failed again?

“Of course it’s me, who d’ya expect?” he asked with a joking smile and took a seat next to me on the couch. I didn’t even know what to do. I’m alive and Niall is here. I threw my arms around him, completely ignoring the feeling of blood creeping out from the cuts and meeting my jumper’s sleeves. It was black, so I didn’t care much if it bled through. I only hoped Niall didn’t know about anything. “Katy, now you’re really worryin’ me. What’s goin’ on?” I didn’t respond and instead, I just tightened the hug around him, refusing to let him go.

“D-Don’t leave me.” I said in a hiccup of crying. He grabbed my shoulders and forced me to look at him closely.

“I would never leave you again, Kate. But I don’t understand… why do you look so scared? What’s goin’ on?” he grazed his thumb over my cheek, wiping away a tear.

“Do we have to go tonight?” I asked him sadly. Maybe if I just change the subject of the conversation, we wouldn’t get to talk about what actually happened last night. I thought cheerfully to myself. I don’t want to go home tonight. I don’t want to face Dad or Mum or anyone from Ireland. I want to stay with Niall and Harry. I don’t want to go home.

“Katy…” Niall sighed sadly. “Why do you have Dad’s pills?” I carried a very wide-eyed expression at him. How the hell does he know about that?

“I uh… I… Dad gave them to me.” I lied and dropped my gaze to my hands.

“These are really strong pain killers, Katy. Why would he give them to you?” oh no… I could… Hannah? Maybe I could tell him about the last day of school a while back? Maybe I could… But… I don’t have anything else as an option, but I could change a bit from the story so he won’t worry as much.

“Can you promise me something?” I asked him before telling Niall anything. He nodded and so I continued. “Promise not to get mad or worry about anything, because there’s just nothing to worry about. Really, it was just my fault and everything ended up well and -”

“Katy,” Niall cut me off from my blabbering. “What’s the worse you could tell me?” you’d be surprised… I thought bitterly.

“Hannah…” I paused for a deep sigh and pinched the bridge of my nose in deep concentration so that I wouldn’t cry. “On the last day of school last year, Hannah waited for me in the courtyard. She uh… she had her mates and they all… uh… they… you should know it’s not their fault. I was just being a stupid cunt and -” I was interrupted by Niall’s dropped jaw at my last words.