Let's Take A Little Ride

Chapter 7 ✔️

"I wanted you to have every experience you could, every positive experience that I wasn't able to have. I wanted you to go to college, you were - are - so smart, I wanted you to capitalize on that. Then I realized once you left that you might meet someone else, that guy who lives on the right side of the law and he would show you the better things in life. Things that I couldn't show or give you. A rich, smart man who didn't have to run from the law and didn't do things that were illegal. A guy who didn't have a record.

"I didn't want to be the one that lost so I let her in. Little by little, I knew what she wanted and at first I fought against it but then I let her in. I let her try to make me fall for her and that was my big mistake. It's not that I didn't trust you because I did . . . Kaylee, I didn't trust me. At that point I didn't trust myself to be enough for you and that fear made me do stupid things." he said.

"I can't . . . no, this isn't possible." I said walking out to the living room and closing the curtains.

"Kaylee . . ."

"Shhh . . ."

"I . . ."

"Shut up damn it."

The tears wanted to fall but I was fighting not to let that happen. In all of the years that have passed since he told me that he was with Letty I've wondered and pondered and thought up reasons that would explain it but nothing came close to what he just said. I never thought that would be a deciding factor, I . . . no, I can't let him in again.

"Kaylee, give me a chance to prove it to you again. To show you that we can . . ."

"No, no I can't do that again. Dom I can't let you in again, you have no idea how much you hurt me. How much I hurt after . . . I felt like . . ."

"Nothing I say can erase the pain or make you forget the past but let me show you that our future is possible." he said, standing in front of me.

"No! Don't touch me, don't do it." I said, stepping back and raising my hands.

"Kaylee . . ."

"No! I don't want . . . I can't . . ."

Before he could say anything I left the house, hopping into my car and just driving away from the house. I didn't want to go to the club and I don't want to go to my house either. So I went to the only other place that no one would go looking for me.

Pulling out the key from my wallet I walked into my godmother's house for the first time in years. After Megan died I couldn't bring myself to come here, I'd meet my madrina anywhere else. She didn't last long after Megan, interning herself into a mental clinic. She died there a year later, committing suicide. My padrino, he tried so hard to keep himself alive but his job did it for him. Some metal something fell on a construction site and crushed his skull. There would have been a lawsuit but I couldn't bring myself to do it.

The house still smelled like her, like all of them. I paid to keep the house well maintained just like I do with my parent's house. Considering my options I went to the sofa bed, I couldn't bring myself to go to any of their rooms yet. Laying on the bed I let the tears flow, something I haven't done over Dominic Toretto in a long time.

I honestly can't believe it, I finally have the answer to the question that plagued me for almost a decade and it's nowhere near what I expected it to be. He ripped my heart out once, I can't let him do that to me again. I won't let him do that again. The tears just cascaded down my cheeks and I couldn't make them stop while the memories flowed. The tears that I didn't let myself cry after that first night were coming back tenfold.

This is too much to handle all at once but I'm strong, I got this. I won't let Dominic Toretto have this kind of hold over me again, I refuse to. Who am I kidding, I was never over Dom and I never will be. This is the reason that he wanted to talk to me, the reason he was looking for me. He wants me to believe that he still loves me but he's here to avenge Letty's death. Contradicting stories that just don't add up. I can't let him in, it's been too long. I've taken care of myself, I made myself believe that I was over him. For nothing.