to walk away
to let gois supposed to make my days brighter
make me feel more whole rather than
half or even emptyto do what happened
is supposed to begin some sort of
road to recoveryand i curse myself
for even still thinking about itbut i am me
and if you know meyou know i am not one
to simply let things pass
without contemplating themto continue on
and to forgetis supposed to make me better
it's supposed to make things easier
and it takes time, i know thatbut when i'm here
and the thought of what is for my own good
and what is needed,
what is necessarydoesn't even come close
to the thought of what i believe
what i feelopinion over fact
i decide to bite the inside of my cheek
shake everything out of my headand decide not to open this case back up
because i fight with myselfi guess this is for my own good
when everyone knows
i am not one
to care for what is for my own goodand that i am a reckless person,
that isn't cautiousonly because there's so much
that is worth more
than playing things safei am mess, i know i am
i am difficult
and stubborn
i don't take in advice easilyi am hardheaded
and i disappoint
only because i always feel so sure
about myselfand my decisions
and i insist that i am rightbecause i want to believe i can change
the course of history
i want to believe i can change
how things were plannedsure it seems just okay
to live out things the way you're supposed tobut i just think
i feel
and i know that there's so much morei don't take the same path as everyone else
because i'm just so stubborn and dumb
and i'm curioussome might say—
alot may say,
that i am wrong
i am hurting myself
i am not capable of taking care of myselfand that may be true
i don't know how to take care of myself
because i am not one to care for myself
i care about othersi'm anything but calm
anything but peace
anything but safetyi am dangerous
and will always have a fire burning inside mea burning desire
for the 'more' in life"Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference."
— Robert Frost