Why now, out of any other time
I was pushed to the front
With all eyes on me
They expected to listen to my singing
But I couldn't
I began to
But my voice kept breaking
My eyes stung
Tears so close to pushing themselves out of my eyes
I knew my dad was staring at me
I felt his eyes piercing into me
I prayed to God to make my vulnerability less noticeable
I got through the songs
And when I sat down I cried
Silently but I cried painfully
Even right now tears are threatening to leave my eyes
I'm so tired
