'unexplainable'
it is truly unexplainable
how bothered, and uncomfortable
and suffocating it feels
to be stuck here
to call this place home
when it is so far from a home
i become
angry and vulnerable
sick of it
it's unexplainable
how quickly i can be brought to tears
wishing so badly to be anywhere but here
home?
what kind of home is this?
it's not one at all.
it's even more unfortunate
that i am alone
in this so-called home.
sickening and maddening.
like a feeling you can't seem to shake
an uncleanliness you can't seem to wash away
a thought that can't be forgotten
a nightmare you don't wake up from
an anger that won't subside
such a shame that it's unexplainable.
