my chest tightened
and then shattered in a staggering pain that physically hurts too much
to describe in a humane way
i cried and screamed not because of that
but because i am breaking apart once again
i am relapsing into the state of where i was frail and withered
i am breaking apart in ever way possible
and in this very moment i wish a distraction
prominent enough to get subside the unreal pain that was ultimately killing me
i cried and screamed because everything and everyone
faded and went away and left me broken
but out of all the things that faded and went away,
i was left with nothing but the body of a dying someone
for which i am constantly breaking.
my soul is very much alive and well
but i am caving in from the outside, inward
i am not exaggerating when i exclaim
that this hurts so bad,
that it feelings like i'm dying but with no real death at the end,
that i am angry for what i've lost, and so much more
it's back again.
