'awake'
holding my legs close to my chest
the slap
the pain from the left side of my face
stinging and burning"go to sleep"
i can't.lip bleeding
and faded bruises on my legs.no, i don't want you to go,
i never wanted you to.
just stay.
stay.tell me the things,
that we both know are lies.
tell me anyway,
i couldn't care less.while i wrap the blanket around myself,
i've kept the ocean bottled up in my eyes,
salty drops force their way out.they've forced their way out,
and they won't stop.i can't push the emotions down anymore,
they always seem to find their way out.i'm angry
and hurt
and weak.i need something
i'm not sure what i need.
the small pieces of me are crumbling down.i think i need sleep.
i think i need to rid myself of my sickness.
i think i don't know what i need.that's enough.
i want to sleep, badly.
but i lack the ability to do so.
so i'm awake.