if you're scared and lost
you don't have to let yourself
get close to me again
you know i never meant to hurt you
and i constantly fight
the reoccurring thought
i keep trying to bury
in the back of my head
you don't have to do anything
if it'll make it easier for you,
block me.
on everything.
erase me from your mind
and make those memories fade
cause if i were you i'd do that too
those last weeks we had together
i was angry, and hurt
not because of you
but because of everyone, and everything else
and i know you were the one i went to
to get away from everyone, and everything else
and you probably knew me better than myself
i'm convinced you did
i knew i was a mess
i know i'm a mess
and you shouldn't have felt
like i was your mess
that you had to deal with it
are you feeling lost and scared?
so am i
i think i have been for a while
the last thing i ever wanted to do
was hurt you
and it was naive of me
to ever think that pushing you
or anyone, or everyone away
-—was going to make me feel happy
and i think because i couldn't feel anything
at the time
i was doing whatever i could to feel
happy, or in this case
feel anything at all
and i just got myself and you hurt
you don't have to get close again
but if you do
just know that
you're free to go
just as you've always been
and if you go
i understand
just as i always have
