today i left school
and got on the bus
and out of nowhere
tears fell from my eyes
and i let it happen
i closed my eyes but
my eyes were leaking
one asked if i was good
i said yeah emotionless
then we got
to the depot
a small group called my name from the back
i sat there, eyes closed
one said i was asleep
and another one
slipped next to me and she asked
if i was okay
and i said yeah i'm fine
she said no, you're not
and that's fine
she went on to tell me
some things that i vaguely remember
because of the music that was playing
in my ears
but at the end she told me if
i needed to talk to someone
i could talk to her
i nodded
then i got off and people saw me
my red face
tears
and i walked on emotionless
onto the other bus and i sat down
next to beeann
and didn't say a word
i just sniffed
and she put her head on my shoulder
and asked if i was okay
i said yeah
then we left
and i sobbed
silently and painfully
keep in mind i was walking on the road
and a car was driving
right there in front of me
and a part of me wanted to stand still
but i sighed and walked off anyway
i got home
and saw the giant mirror shattered
i walked upstairs
and here i am
holding my breath
and my tears
i'm sorry dad.
