Hazed | 5SOS

05

I quickly pulled the covers over my body as I waited for the door to swing open.

I prayed for Jenna to leave, I didn't want her to find my scars. Nobody knows I am sick and I don't want them to, please. Not yet.

Some people actually think I'm kind of normal.

I had scars on my hips, back, all up my sides, my shoulders, some on my left thigh, and of course, wrists where the real damage occurred. Basically everywhere you wouldn't see. Lets just say you'll never see me wearing a bikini any time soon.

The door swung open and I quickly turned my face to the wall. Being almost nose to penis with Alex Gaskarth on my All Time Low poster.

"Autumn?" A boy voice asked,

"Yeah?" I asked, not turning around, at least it wasn't Luke, I would recognize his demeaning tone anywhere.

"Sorry, Jenna sent me up here to get her Anatomy book.. Any idea where that is?" I heard him shuffling around the room,

I tried to turn my body best I could while still covering my body. I'm sure it looked very unnatural. Unfortunately, Calum stood in the middle of my room.

"Um.. It might be by her desk?" I suggested, he sat down at her desk and started going through her stuff.

He sat there silently. I never really had a conversation with him. He seemed nice. Calum was one of those boys that was the true silent and sexy type. He barely ever talked from when I've been around him.

"You don't say much." My mouth blurted,

"Neither do you." He shrugged,

"Why?" I asked,

"Just not that good with words, I guess." He said, "At least I'm not like Luke or Michael who can talk your ear off." Calum chuckled to himself,

"True. I'm glad your not like Luke. I've known him a day and he already got on my last nerve." I rolled my eyes,

"He has that effect on people." Calum said, as if it was a usual occurrence.

"So are you living in the dorms?" I asked,

"No. Me, Ashton, Luke, and Michael all own a house like a few blocks away from campus." He tells me,

"What are you majoring in?" I ask,

"Music and Liberal Arts." He explains,

"Oh so you want to be like a music teacher?" I asked, as a music lover, I wish I could be in Music.

Jesus I might've actually learned an instrument if he was my teacher, amiright ladies

"Yeah." He says, "You ask a lot of questions."

"I just like for things to be clear." I smiled shyly.

"Is there anywhere else it could be?" Calum asked, I quickly took my arm out of my blanket to point to the wardrobe,

"Probably in there-" I took in a sharp breath the moment I realized, I know he saw. The ones on my shoulder are purple and big, they tend to stand out when I'm not wearing a shirt.

Idiot

I quickly shoved it back into my sheets. It was in the wardrobe.

"There it is. You were right. Thanks" He started walking out the door,

"No problem." I was able to croak.

"Oh and Autumn," Calum stopped before leaving, "You don't have to do that to yourself. You don't deserve it." He half smiled,

"Thanks Calum. That means a lot. I'm feeling better now." I assure him,

"Please don't tell anybody." I pleaded,

"Of course." He smiled at me, "Your secret is safe with me." He assures me,

It better be.