Dear Best Friend | 김태형

Just think about it || Chapter eighteen

"Ready?" Taehyung asked you as you walked towards the side entrance that evening after school. You sighed, "Of course."

Something heavy settled in your stomach as butterflies swirled around, Taehyung was walking next to you, both of you walking towards the sunset on that cold night. He was particularly quiet this evening, but he looked more relaxed than he usually did recently.
Unlike yourself.

"What's wrong, Y/N?" His voice broke the silence, and you jumped slightly at the sudden voice as you veered around the school gate and through the black park.
"N-nothing, Sorry. Just thinking." You half-smiled, staring at the ground in front of you. You heard a deep hum from beside you.

As you watched his feet sync with yours, you wondered what it would really be like to just say you liked Taehyung back, and to officially be together.

It would be odd. You'd known him for some time now - and only as a best friend. You didn't really put much thought into going any further with him than the occasional hug and childish play-fighting, if you were honest, however, now that he'd confessed, some sort of fire seemed to have lit inside your stomach.

You didn't even know if you liked him like that - but you couldn't deny that the flustering sensation of him staring at you and only you with the eyes he was with earlier in the changing rooms when you borrowed his shirt wasn't amazing. You gulped at the mere thought of it.

The thing is about Tae, is that you wouldn't have to worry about him unfulfilling his role as the most cheerful person ever even if you did start dating...

But, what would happen if you broke up? What's if your friendship was only meant to stay a friendship? Would a broken heart destroy the bond you share just now?
You didn't want to lose that, and you weren't sure you were willing to take that risk. He's one of the best friends you've ever had - and you deeply cared for him, as he did you.

Was he serious also?
Perhaps he was just... excited that his best friend was a girl, maybe he's making a rash decision?

And finally... are you willing to commit? He deserves the best. Are you right for him? Do you want him? If not, then it would just lead to more heartbreak if you said yes and you didn't mean it. That wouldn't be fair.

You heard the cars beeping in what seemed to be a traffic jam up ahead. On the roundabout you normally crossed, a large truck had its breakdown lights on and was sitting inconveniently on the junction. Several cars were piled behind it, honking angrily to get through; the pathway you normally took was blocked as the truck was peeking out onto the roundabout, causing the cars going around to slow down dramatically, making no space for a crossing.

Just as you neared it, you felt a hand grab your wrist.
"No, this way." Taehyung said, yanking you to turn away from the road. "But, I'm sure we can-"
"No, it's hectic and I don't want to risk getting you hurt." He stated, and you hummed, pouting. "I'm fine..." you whispered, but you felt his grip tighten; he was conveying some kind of message through feeling, as if he was insecure.

Down a street you hardly went through, you thought of Jungkook. This was close to where his old house was, from what you could remember of when he first moved here many years ago. You met him at a park, he had a dog at the time and you all messed about until it was time to go home. This happened almost daily, yet it took almost a year and a half to start actually talking to him in school. He was a really sensitive kid.

Thinking back, he hasn't really changed much. Yeah, he's a little more open now, but he's still the black-haired doe-eyed kitten-lipped goofball you always cared for.

A wave of sadness and worry washed over you as you realised that you hadn't seen him since you left him in P.E. to go see Taehyung.
According to Jimin, he went home sick just at the same time you left to see Tae. He didn't seem too off, but you wouldn't have noticed, you were blinded by Taehyung the whole day to pay close attention.

If Jimin said he was okay, then you'd trust him. Hopefully Jungkook would show by tomorrow - you needed him for dance.

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"Have a nice evening, Y/N." Taehyung wished as you stood a few metres away from your front gate. You didn't want your parents seeing you standing talking to the neighbour for too long - they'd start asking and now wasn't the best time.

"Thanks, try and relax a little when you get home," you nudged his arm, smiling as he was stiff as a board. He smirked, shaking his head. You leaned against the other neighbors fence with a pout, "I mean it." You said, and this only deepened his smirk. "Whatever."

Something inside you begged you to just hug him there and then, to just help and release some of your tension, but you knew it wasn't the best time. You both needed time to think.

"Y/N?" He asked suddenly, and you gulped. His tone sounded sincere.
You nodded, and he frowned. "I know... I know you probably don't know yet, but I have a favour... can you- can you promise me that you'll think about what I said to you earlier? And..."

Your heart was pounding, anticipation rattling your nerves. "And...?"
"And think of... yes or no..." he asked, and you looked down at your feet. Yes or no...

"Yes- I mean, yeah, I'll think about it." You promised, stuttering knowing you were blushing as your face felt pretty hot. He smiled suddenly, a giddy upturn of the lips. His hands slid into his pockets, and he licked his lower lip as he stared at you.

You were distracted by it, and felt your heart rate stop momentarily as you realised he saw you - he watched you as your face turned scarlet.

"Uhm, I-"
He cut you off by laughing, chuckling heartily as you covered your cheeks with your sleeves. You groaned loudly, and he looked very amused.
"I think it's home time for you."

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