Depression and self harm quotes and poems.

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I'm done trusting people. Every single person I have ever let in left or did something that hurt me. My best friends for all first semester of school ignored me at lunch and didn't even go looking for me when I went and hid in the last stall of the bathroom. No one ever asked about me. When they did I lied. It's getting harder to hide it. The one person that was there for me when that was happening left me. He's happier now too. He's not homeschooled anymore. His family problems are gone about 98%. Ever since he left his life got better. My family will either tell me I'm overreacting for treat me like I'm crazy. I'm not ignored anymore but sometimes I wonder is sitting there keeping my mouth shut and not having to pretend was better than forcing myself to smile when I feel like dying. Part of me wants help. Part of me want to die. Part of me is afraid of death. Another part of me is terrified of it. The two bands that really helped me through everything the past four or five years one of them broke up on my birthday while the other is on a break and I don't know if they will even get back together. Someone please tell me what to do with myself.