Same, But Different (A Fullmetal Alchemist fan-fic)

Getting the Hell Outta Here

Eclair

Are we there yet? Are we there yet? I didn't wanna go there. Every minute that passed I felt as if I was closer to death. I felt a dark void in my stomach. It was dead and draining the energy out of me. It was heavy in my chest. We were now on our way to Freemont, the little mountain town in Amestris's eastern side where I grew up. My mechanic still lived there.

Why did I agree to go back there? I asked myself over and over again. The question kept circulating my brain, as the long train ride kept going on, and on, and on....it seemed like an eternity plus forevermore. 

Throughout the entire ride, Ed kept giving me looks from where he sat next to me. I could see in his glares. He was trying to figure me out. He kept scratching stuff down in a notebook in such an analytically manner. I really didn't want to be studied.

I really didn't want to be here and I really didn't want to be studied. Really.

See the sarcasm and how happy I am right now?

Anyways, I couldn't tell if his glances and notes were good or bad (probably bad considering half the stuff I did) however I did know that Al was in on it because they kept sharing glances and looks, they way brothers do while trying to talk about something without wanting their mother to know. They were hiding something, definitely.

Did I care what they were hiding? Eh, somewhat. The real thing that was bugging me was the fact they were creeping me out because Ed seemed obsessed on to figuring out how I completed my taboo. I didn't want to even speak about the 'accident' of mine. I'd rather leave that behind in my memories, where it belongs for good reasons.

"Alright, Ed give it up. What are you and Al planing. I've known you two forever and I know when you're both planning something." Winry crossed her arms, glaring at the two.

"Well, because you wanted to know," Ed glared at me. I gave him a fearful look of shock. I really didn't need word of my 'accident' 'taboo' call-it-what-you-like spreading out any further than it already had. My eyebrows sagged as I finally gave him the 'please not right now' look. I wanted to forget the past and move forward, like a good girl would. I didn't want to look back on this taboo of mine. Yet unlike the good girl I was, I let the regrets and sins pile up on me like a man. 

Then again, I was more man like than lady like any day, any time, anywhere.

Ed shook his head and looked back to Winry, who was cradling a wrench which she was preparing to use to whack Ed in the head with. Ed responded to her, "It's nothing, just wanted to ask Eclair a few questions. It's better we don't do it here though, but to wait until we arrive and can speak freely in private. There's just too many people here.

I sighed in relief. He understood me.

"Whatever, I'm watching you both." Wirny rolls her eyes while standing up at the table.

Ed slams his hands down on the table, "well yeah? I'm watching you too!"

They two sat back down and refused to look at each other for quite some time. Meanwhile I took the time to watch the landscape pass by. As I watched out the window, I felt more of an urge to be free from this wood and metal container that trapped me inside to transport me like cattle to a new place (alright it wasn't that bad, I just wanted to be able to get out of the train car since I already was in it for five hours) which I would benefit from. 

I wanted to run. Free. 

Just run. To where? I didn't know. I just knew I wanted to run.

Whenever I was angry or annoyed I would run. It became kinda a habit by now. Just run. I've got quite good at it by now. I would be in one city one day, then the next I'd be clear across Amestris without a warning or a sign. I didn't like people to know where I was. I just wanted to be free.