Tom had just gotten back from wherever he was, shooting some movie and he was already going back! I gave out a loud groan and scratched Tessa behind the ears then stroked her head. "Stupid films, aren't they Tess?" I asked and flicked through a few channels, looking at the floor to see Haz and Tom completely knocked out. "He's always knackered when he gets back and then off he goes to continue filming.." I mumbled. "Poor Tommo." I got up and turned the TV off, letting Tessa paw her way to her bed and then getting two blankets. I let one fall on Haz then one on Tom and I went to go get another, realising there wasn't any left. "Just my luck." I whispered and went back to the sofa, trying desperately to fall asleep.
I was making pancakes and playing a bit with Tessa as I watched some Friends. I flipped a pancake once or twice before putting it on a plate , in total we had three each. I paused the series and went to go wake up the two best friends. "Hey losers! Rise and shine! Tom's probably leaving today, right?" The boys groaned and got up, only to notice the pancakes waiting for them. "Thank you!" They chorused and scrambled up to get to the breakfast. As the usual response, I rolled my eyes and grinned as I went over to my seat.
"So.. Tom. You're heading back today again aren't you?" I asked with a little bit of hope in my voice. He chuckled. "Why? Tired of me already?" He asked and I ate some more of my pancake. "All year it feels as if you've been home for a minute." I said it as a joke.. But I meant it. "Sorry.. Work, you know?" I nodded and gave a smile. "You didn't answer the question." I said and then scratched the top of Tessa's head and patted her neck gently. "I have until Friday." Today's Wednesday.. You don't get enough of a break, Tommo. "Awesome!" I said and continued to eat my breakfast before rushing out of the house with Tessa on a lead. Bye guys!"
I sighed and ran a hand over my face and through my hair, glancing down at the dog that was happily bounding around right next to me. "How do you deal with it, love?"I asked and crouched to stroke her. "Remember the first time we met, girl? Of course you don't." I spoke and got up, making my way to the park I always took her to. She started to try and run ahead so I just jogged along with her, laughing the whole way.
"Thanks, love, I needed that." I said to the panting but excited dog. I sat down at a bench and Tessa sat down as I pulled out my phone and went live on Instagram. Being Tom's friend, a lot of people joined. "Hey guys.. Just taking a walk with Tess at the park, as usual. Tom is back until Friday.. I'm glad he's here for a longer time than usual but he's practically never home and he's always knackered. Sorry for bothering you guys but hey ho I'm the mum friend, right?" I said with a lite chuckle, flipping the camera and showing everyone Tessa. I patted her neck gently and then we started walking again. I flipped the camera back to my face and noticed the now dark Grey cloud. It started spitting. "Bloody Britain!" I yelled and I started running home with Tessa. "Should've brought a coat, huh Tess?" I asked and chuckled, letting out quick breaths as the spitting turned to full on chucking it down a while ago. "C'mon, love! I'm soaked!" I mumbled to the sprinting dog and I quickly opened and closed the door after us. "Sorry guys, gotta go!" I said and ended the live stream. I took the lead off of Tessa's collar and I got a towel, cleaning her paws from the mud and then drying her body and letting her roam around the house freely. I went into the bathroom and started a bath, getting the stuff I'll need. British weather sucks.
I got out of the room, dressed in warmer clothes and drying my hair with a towel. "Hey guys." I said as I passed them and went to my kitchen. I dumped the towel in the washing basket and I got out a packet of crisps. I put in some earphones and let my playlist go on as I lightly danced around the house as I made my way to my room to quickly grab a laptop. I sat down in between Harrison and Thomas and I got typing on my laptop, raising my knees to rest my laptop on to make sure they won't see the writing. I finished some notes and decided to finish editing a chapter before closing the laptop to make conversation. "What's up?" I asked and got a response of an 'mph' before they got typing on their phones again. "Idiots." I mumbled and snatched their phones before sprinting off and hiding them. I went into the kitchen to pretend I'd hidden it there, finally, and they started to scramble around looking for their phones. "You won't find them. What were you doing that was more important than spending time with friends for your short break, Tom? And Haz, what were you doing that's more important than your best friend?" I asked and tapped my foot on the floor before stopping and coming to a conclusion based on the looms on their faces. My eyes widened and I went through everything I could've done. I looked at them with a poker face. "You were messaging each other to avoid me, weren't you?" I asked and the looks on their faces gave the answer away. Yes. I just hit my palm on my forehead and chuckled. "I'm an idiot, aren't I?" I asked and gave a weak smile. "No-" they started. "Why did I think you guys could like a weirdo like me?" "Listen to me-" Tom started and I shot a glare at him. "Tommo," he raised his eyebrows at the nickname I called him, seeing as I only called him that in my head, I wasn't able to make some things out due to the tear brimming up and blurring my eyesight, "Tommo I liked you. I still like you. More than a friend, but you probably knew. I was stupid and look, here's my Karma." I said and flopped my arms in the air, lifting one hand to hide the tears threatening to spill. "I'm ruining your break, you can go home now." I said and watched and waited and breathed in deeply until the two left with this look on their face. I locked the door and sunk to the floor, sobbing my eyes out. A whimpering came from next to me and Tessa nudged her head into my hand out of worry. I stroked her and walked over to her bed, making her follow. "Come on, Love, get some sleep." I mumbled and stroked her until she fell asleep. As soon as she was asleep, i let sobs escape my mouth and I let out screams in my head. I cried silently until I went to bed and put a cork on the bottle of emotions once again. "I'm so sorry Tommy." I whispered to myself and let myself fall asleep.
Something nudged my hand that was hanging off of the bed. Go away, I need sleep. Please let me rest. I forced myself up and stroked Tessa, suddenly taking notice of the light knocking at the door and I went over to open it, hoping I looked presentable. Maybe if I don't they'll go away and I can sleep.. Unfortunately, the person at the door was Tommo. "Oh.. Hey Thomas." "Hey.. Look, you were right about us avoiding talking to you then.. But it wasn't because we don't like you. When you told me that you.. Like me.." He gulped nervously. "When you told me I just thought 'fuck, I messed up.' I should've told you the truth before this got out of hand... This fight started from something petty but it was just to set off all of those hidden insecurities, wasn't it?" I nodded and he continued. "I'm sorry.. I like you but I don't deserve you. I'm sorry about this." He said and quickly pulled me into a kiss. When he finally pulled back I stared wide-eyed as he went to turn and leave. "Had to do it at least once.. I'll pick up Tessa tomorrow and my brothers can look after her when I'm filming.." He said and went to walk away. "Tom?!" I asked and my voice cracked. He turned around to face me, his brown eyes shining with confusion and curiosity. I hate how perfect he is because I'll never be with him. "Y-yeah?" I gave him a kiss and I bet I was grinning like a big goof when I pulled back. "I'll take care of Tessa."
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