Shattered (Fairy Tail)

13: Stars

Lucy's P.O.V

When I woke up it was silent and still dark. The light from the moon was the only reason I could see in my room. There was no noises, but something was up. There was something different, Natsu was gone. He wasn't on the couch. He wasn't in my bed. He wasn't anywhere. I knew automatically that something was wrong. I know that this came so early but I guess I looked at Natsu the first thing waking up. 

"Natsu? Natsu?" I called looking for him. My heart was picking up but I kept telling myself to not overreact. Calm down Lucy. Calm down Lucy? There is not reason to act this way. There is no evidence that he is in trouble. So why am I suddenly jumping to that conclusion. 

I noticed something after that. The window was open. I know that I shut it before I went to bed. So Natsu must have went through the window, but why? What reason could he have to leave? I decided it would be best to go. Going the same route as he did who'd be the best bet, even if I don't really want to go through my own window. 

I got onto the window sill and looked around. Nothing told me right away where he went. Then I slipped. I began to fall until I stopped. Natsu stood there standing on the roof holding my arm. He shook his head and pulled me up onto the roof with him. I smiled but his look was dead serious. My smile fell. 

"What are you doing up here? You could have been hurt." he growled. It surprised me just how mad Natsu was. He actually looked furiated with me. Instead of letting on I just narrowed my eyes at him.

"I could ask you the same thing Natsu." I pointed out matching his look. He sighed and then looked up to the sky. The bright moon and dim stars lit up the town making a beautiful sight. Natsu sighed and then closed his eyes speaking his answer. 

"The stars. You can see them better out here then inside." he said. 

"Yeah that's true, but why do you want to stare at the stars." I asked. 

"You wouldn't understand." he said letting me go and sitting back down on the roof. I followed his lead taking a spot right next to him. The hard roof was tough on my bottom but I didn't care. All that mattered is that Natsu is next to me. 

"Natsu please. I'm worried about you." I told him. He shook his head crossing his arms over his knees. Once again he looked up to the stars and sat there staring up. He looked like he was out again. Like he wouldn't listen to me any more. 

"It's fine. Don't worry about it." he said looking down.

"Please." I asked. I think its bad to push him farther but I really am worried. I want to know what he is thinking and I can't figure that out if he is so distant.

"Stop Luce. Just stop." He spoke turning his head to look away. By now the sun has risen a little and a lot of the stars has disappeared. I want him to speak to me, but forcing him us the wrong way to go about it. "I-I just want to be alone."

"Okay. I'm going to the guild. Will you be okay here for a little bit?" I sighed. I need help. Maybe Natsu just needs some other kind of help.

"Yeah."

Natsu's P.O.V

Lucy left a little bit ago, but now I'm all alone. I know I told her I wanted to be by myself, but I'm just not sure anymore.  I'm not sure about anything anymore.  Everything is just confusing me. I just want to go back to the Demon Hawk guild. That is where I belong. I'm not a Fairy Tail wizard. I'm a slave of Demon Hawk. The brand on my leg says so.

I just wish Kitten was here. If she was here then I wouldn't be feeling like this. I would know exactly what to do and where to go, but I have to face the facts. Kitten is gone. I don't know where she is but I know that we will probably never see eachother again.

At least I remember what she would always tell me. Don't give up, look up and follow the stars. They will always be there to lead you to sunrise. I smile at the thought of her. My smile faltered once I remembered the truth. She was gone, and it's because of me. I will never be able to get her back. I'm not even sure where she is.

Maybe I should go back. No. I shouldn't have ever left. What was I thinking? There is no place for me here. I can't risk losing Lucy, just like I lost Kitten. I can't take that pain again. The only way to avoid that pain is to leave. All I can do is leave and I won't hurt anymore. I won't cause pain on others. 

I don't want to leave. Actually I would rather stay. I love this place and the people but I can't stay. I belong at Demon Hawk. Never was I free. I will always be a slave of Demon Hawk.

It's decided. I will go back to Demon Hawk, and I will never leave. Ever again. Not even if Fairy Tail comes after me again. I will stay there.

It makes me sad that I will never be able to see Lucy again but atleast ahe will be safe. Her safety comes before my happiness. All there is to do now is get there.  To be honest, I'm not even sure how far it is from here.

"How am I going to make it back?" I asked myself. I don't know how but there must be a way. Without noticing a voice spoke from just behind me.

"I can help you, Natsu."

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