Shattered (Fairy Tail)

12: Lucy's Home

Lucy's P.O.V

After Natsu told me and Happy what happened to him, I felt really bad. For him to tell us that means that he trusts us more than ever, but that also explains why he didn't trust Fairy Tail. He was taught to. After he gave up on us saving him, he just went along with it. It's a sad thing to think about. 

"Natsu. You know we didn't come and get you because we couldn't find you. We had no clues on where you were. I tried for years to find you. I never gave up. I always tried to figure it out. I always tried to find that last piece that would tell me where you were at, but I only found you when our job said to take down the guild." she explained. 

"I know you tried, but it doesn't matter anymore. I'm out, that's all that matters now. Sure, I'm not the same, but no one stays the same forever." he said. Natsu and I stayed in the guild after that. He chatted a little bit but mostly he just sat at the counter lost in thought. I would catch him looking at the ceiling saying nothing. I wonder what he is doing when he just sits there. 

Some of the guild members tried to talk with him but he didn't respond very much. Even to Happy. I tried to explain to him that Natsu just needs some time to get used to the world around him, but I think I mostly said that for myself. That question keeps coming up in my head. What if Natsu never goes back to normal?

He'll just be the same as he is now. He'll always be scared, untrustful, and always be staring off into space. I can't just sit down and let Natsu fear everyone in his life, but if you think about it from his point of view it sounds like we are the crazy ones. 

Suddenly his whole world was taken by a handful of people who beat up his master and took you to their guild. After that they started to tell you that everything that you know is just a lie. You are a wizard. You are part of Fairy Tail. You're friends with all of these people but you just don't remember it. It must be really confusing for him. 

I figured that after all of this I should do something for him. I know that he used to like doing jobs but I need to think of something that won't scare him. Something that will show him just how much I'm sorry. Something to show his some good things in the world, but what would that be. What could I possibly show him? I need to think of something simple. 

"Lucy. You know how late it is right?" I heard someone ask. I looked over to see Mira bent over looking at me with her smile. I looked around and almost everyone in the guild was gone. Everyone must have left for their homes.

"Oh. Um. Thanks Mira. I must have spaced off." 

"Looks to me like that makes two of you." she said moving so I can see Natsu. He sat there at the bar just like he did the last time I saw him. He looked up to the sky and I decided that it was probably time for me to go home, but I don't want to leave Natsu alone. Maybe we should just go home together. It's not like it would be the first time he came into my house. I stood and thanked Mira before walking over to Natsu. 

"Hey Natsu." I said before spooking him. He blinked his eyes before looking to me. 

"What's up Lucy?" 

"It's late. You want to go home?" he looked down. "You can come stay at my house." Natsu nodded slowly and then pushed the chair in. I don't know if it's just me, but Natsu seems a little more depressed then he usually is. I wonder why that it? I kind of ignored it for a while, but this is ridiculous. We walked out of the guild doors but suddenly Natsu stopped straight in his tracks. 

He looked up at the stars. The bright twinkle seemed to fill his eyes as he stared up at the sky. He finally took in a breath and then let it out before forcing himself to look down. I looked up to the stars trying to find what he was so fasinated by. He forced himself forward and I followed through leading him to my house. For the rest of the walk he didn't look up. 

We both entered through the door and I locked it behind us. Natsu took a seat on my couch and then looked up once again. Like usual I felt a need to figure out why he did this. It's something I need to look into but I'm scared to ask him. 

"Natsu are you okay? he shook his head and then looked to me. 

"It's nothing. Just sleep." he told me. I nodded sadly and then got under my bed covers without getting changed. I didn't really want to leave Natsu alone at this point. He was really scaring me. I have never seen him act as sad as today, but I can't push him to talk to me. No matter what I do, I can't lose his trust. So far it's the only thing that's keeping him around. I'm sure that if he didn't trust me he would go back to that guild like a confused puppy. 

Eventually I fell asleep, but Natsu didn't. He still sat awake. At least he lied down with his head facing up. Still, he watched the sky. With no sound, barely any breathing, and nothing distracting him. Without me knowing it, Natsu continued to look at the ceiling throughout most of the night. He never got up. He never moved. He never even rolled over. Then he spoke a few words and broke the everlasting silence. 

"I'm free Kitten." Natsu mumbled. "Just like you always wanted."

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