Scars // LH

Chapter 1- Just Another Fan

Just Another Fan

*Hold you tight, straight through to daylight*

*I'm right here, when ya gonna realise?*

*That I'm your cureeeeeeee*

*Heartbreak girl*

I strummed the last notes of Heart Break Girl on my guitar and sighed. If I was really a star and I'd really done that on stage, there wold be endless applause and screams. But I wasn't. I was sitting on my bed, and the only sound that was cheering me on was the last echo of my guitar.

I clambered off my bed and crawled underneath it. I loved it under here, there were so many special things, like my posters.

Mom wouldn't let me hang my posters on my wall. She said it would ruin my wallpaper. So I kept them stashed under my bed in a special box. I'd scrawled hearts all over them. Hey, call me crazy, but don't tell me you haven't been obsessed with a band before?

Yep, I'm a 5 Seconds Of Summer fan. I've loved them since the day they became a band. I listened to their music every day. I sang their songs while I played my guitar. Sometimes I'd make up these whacky scenarios, like one day I'd walk into my room and they'd all be there. But no matter how hard I wished, it seemed to never happen. Every day I'd rush home from school and check their Twitter and Instagram, wondering whether they somehow knew who I was. But they never would. I'm just another fan to them.

My favourite in the band was Luke Hemmings. I reached into my box and fished out one of his posters. He was perfect. I loved the way his blond hair was toulsed at the front. I loved the way his beautiful blue eyes sparkled. I loved the way he bit on his lip piercing. I loved the way his voice sounded when he sang. I loved HIM. I was like a little kid, I would go to sleep thinking about him and he'd be the first person on my mind when I woke up. If I could meet him, my life would be complete. But I needed a miracle for that.

My name is Sophie. I don't like my name, I prefer Soph. I'm 15, so I'm still at school. Luckily, the summer holidays have just started, so I have a good month or so to relax and do nothing. I love the summer, partly because its my birthday. But there was a funny feeling. I almost felt like this summer was going to be different...

I shrugged the thought away and picked up my little hand mirror lying on the floor. I poked at my thick strawberry blond hair that slouched at the top of my head in a messy bun. It was a nightmare, all the way down to my bum, practically. My emerald eyes wandered over my own reflection. I rubbed at my freckles. I hated them. I didn't really like the way I looked, but there was nothing I could do about it, especially with my best friend insisting that I was perfect.

My best friend was Anna. She always told me she was jealous of me. Why? She has glossy black hair that never went frizzy. Still, it didn't reach past her shoulders. She had English Rose skin, and she wasn't afraid of anything, unlike me.

I have anxiety. I can't talk in front of strangers. I just completly shut off. Thats why I keep my music hidden away. I can sing and play guitar, but only on my own or in front of Anna. She always nags me to post a few videos on Youtube, but she doesn't understand. No one will.

I shivered just thinking about it. Last year was a bad year for me. My past was shaky and a sore subject to bring up. I hugged myself tight, carefully avoiding my back. I closed my eyes, wishing the violent memories to fade.

When I opend my eyes, I could feel them burning with tears. I reached for Luke's poster again. I stared into him eyes. "Sometimes, I wish you were here..." I whispered to myself.

I suddenly sat bolt upright when the sound of She Looks So Perfect filled my room. For a split second, I wondered if 5SOS were actually in my room. But as I scrambled out from under my bed, I realised it was my phone ringing. I dragged myself off the floor and rushed to my dressing table. I picked up my phone and squinted at the screen. It was Anna.

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So there is the first chapter! It may be boring, because all first chapters are bitty, but I promise it'll pick up soon!

I will be updating every Sunday! So until next week, bye!!!

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Maris xxx