Yet Again History Repeats Itself (Completed)

Chapter 61: How Could You

Days later after my boys funeral I had a conversation with my mom. I was still doing the same not wanting to get up from bed, not eating, and not taking care of my hygiene. I just didn't care anymore I was at a all time low of depression. The only time you would see me up from bed is to go to the restroom. Casper was always begging me to get up and to eat but I would just ignore him.

"Mija you can't keep doing this you need to get up, shower, and eat" said my mom.

"I don't want too" I said.

"But you have too" said my mom.

"Just let me stay here" I said.

"Come on just get up or sit up" said my mom.

"I'm too tired to sit up or get up" I said.

She sighed "okay fine" said my mom.

"You said you wanted to talk about something before you got here. What did you want to talk about" I asked.

She gave me a sad smile "your dad didn't want me telling you and i don't know if I should I don't want to worry you" said my mom.

I sat up quick "just tell me mom because if you don't I will worry" I said.

She sighed "were behind paying rent and if we don't pay by next month they'll evict us" said my mom.

Hearing that broke me I didn't knew they were struggling with money. When I was living with them I was taking care of mostly all the bills and they only worried about buying food and rent. This is my fault.

"How many months" I asked.

"Three and with this month four" said my mom.

"Okay i have some money saved and I'll go ask for my job back and I'll go live with you guys again and help you guys out until you both get back to your feet" i said.

"No baby no don't worry me and your dad will figure it out" said my mom.

"Mom if I stay I'll keep on doing this let me go back home so I can somehow learn to live my life again" I said.

"What about Casper" asked my mom.

"He has to let me go back mom I don't have a reason to stay anymore. I love him mom but you and dad need me right now and if he doesn't understand that then why am I with him. You helped us with everything dealing with Jay you and dad instead of paying for rent you both paid for all the expenses it came with. The least we both can do is me going back and helping" I said.

My mom hugged me "okay I just don't want this to effect you and Casper" said my mom.

"I know but don't worry" I said.

After our conversation she helped me up and I went to take a shower by myself for the first time then I went back to the room to change and my mom had clean clothes out for me. I changed into them and my jeans fit loose and so did my shirt. I know my mom notice because she was just looking at me when I was brushing my hair.

"Why are you looking at me" I asked.

"You got skinnier" said my mom.

"Yeah" I said.

"That's not healthy" said my mom.

"I know it's not" I said.

"You need to start eating good again" said my mom.

"I know" I said.

Then I went and I put my shoes on. Then I laid back down in bed. I was so exhausted I wanted to take a nap. I was closing my eyes when my mom spoke again.