Yet Again History Repeats Itself (Completed)

Chapter 67: Coming Clean

" come over its something I should tell you face to face" I said.

"Alright I'm leaving now" said Casper.

We hanged up and I sat up from my bed. I got up and went to the kitchen to drink water and take a pill I had to take. Then I ate a light snack. I was finishing my snack when Casper was texting saying he's outside. So I finished and I went to open the door. We walked to my room and we sat down in my bed.

I got his hand.

"I don't know how to tell you" I said.

"Just tell me baby, what's wrong" said Casper.

"There's nothing wrong it's just ugh I don't know how to say it" i said.

~Flashback~

It was a day before my doctors appointment. I hadn't gotten my period so I decided to take a pregnancy test before I met up with someone. I was in the restroom waiting to take it when I got a text.

'Hey I can go to your house right now since I'm free'

'Yeah come on through then' I sent back to them.

'Alright cool, Ey since this will be your first it'll be on the house. Just hit me up whenever you want some more'

'Yeah for sure' I sent them.

I put my phone down and I got the pregnancy test out.

"Okay if it comes back negative I'll probably be a crackhead if it comes back positive the fuck will I do" I said to myself.

Even though life wasn't as painful I was still depressed and I just wanted to try a different drug I really wanted to go ahead and do it and fully fuck up my life by doing cocaine I had the urge to do it.

After debating whether to take it or not i finally got it over with. And I waited and waited and waited. Time was up and I picked up the test. I really couldn't believe my eyes. It was a very light positive but it was positive. I didn't had other tests to take so instead of buying more I'd just wait for tomorrow to get it confirmed. When I finally took it in I started cry so bad.

"No, no, no, no this can't be happening, not again, gawd please no" I said as I cried.

I can't do this. I can't be pregnant. I don't want to be pregnant. I don't want this child. I really don't. I don't want to go through another heartache because if I do I won't survive, I won't make it out alive. Please let it be a dream please don't let me have this child that I don't want and can't love. I crying so bad how can I be so stupid and not use protection or get on birth control.

I got up and I washed my face and I went to my room. I was in bed already I just wanted this to be a dream a sick twisted dream.

"God please, if you aren't going to let me keep this child don't let me carry him or her full term take him or her away already please God, I can't do this all over again. It will really kill me" I said softly crying to God.

I got my phone and they had texted they were here so I got up. And I just got the cocaine from them and I just saved it. And I went back to bed and I fell asleep hoping it was just a dream.

~End Of Flashback~

He hugged me "look I'm here just tell me" said Casper giving me a kiss.

I closed my eyes and I took a deep breath "I'm pregnant" I said.

He had a shocked face "What" said Casper.

"I'm pregnant again" I said crying.

He was crying too "your kidding right or what really you are" said Casper.