Yet Again History Repeats Itself (Completed)

Chapter 73: Really Again?

What seemed like forever we finally got to the hospital and Casper helped me get down and we walked inside. Casper told them what happened so they checked me in right away.

They checked me and they confirmed, what I knew all along, that I was having a miscarriage. Since it was early in the pregnancy they let me go home.

I was devastated. I know that at first I didn't want to be pregnant but I was looking forward to having another baby especially because we had already picked out a name for him or her. That made it even more hard. Now to tell everyone that we are no longer having a baby made it even more difficult. Why was this happening to me? Why do I have to suffer another loss?

We got home and we told my mom what they told us. We talked for a while. She was trying to comfort me letting me know I wasn't alone that I had her if I needed something. Then she asked if she could take Alaina with her for a few days so we can have some time alone. I really didn't want to let her go but I knew it was best for her to be away for a few days. So Casper packed Alaina's things and gave it to my mom. I kissed her goodbye and so did Casper. After she left I went to bed and just cried. Some time has gone by and Casper came and laid next to me and we cuddled.

It was like that for the next few days. I wouldn't eat I'd just wake up be in bed and cry myself to sleep. Casper would force me to eat at least one meal a day. I was feeling alone and depressed.

"Babe I know this is sad and depressing but we have Alaina. Maybe it just wasn't meant to be. Maybe later in life we can have another baby but right now we have Alaina" said Casper.

"I know it probably wasn't the right time but i just can't help it. We picked out the name and we were planning everything already. I know it was too soon to do but to know that we will never know the gender breaks me. Was it Omar or Melanie? Now all I have are the what if's" i said.

"I know babe but look at it like this, little Omar or Melanie is with baby Jay. What if he wanted a little brother or sister because we have Alaina with us maybe he wanted a sibling with him also. Come on babe I know it's hard but we will get through this together" said Casper.

"That's sort of comforting in a way. But your right he or she is with our baby boy now. And I know we will get through this together" I said.

"Come on let's get ready so we can go pick up our babygirl" said Casper.

"Alright" I said.

So we both got up from bed and I went to take a shower. When I got done I went to get changed in the room and Casper went and took a shower. I was putting on my sweater when Casper came out the shower. When he got done we left to get Alaina from my moms house.

We spent some time at my parents house just talking. Then my mom said she had made food so we went to go eat with my family. When we all got done eating I got everyone's plates and I went to wash the dishes. Casper cleaned up the table then he was sweeping. After we got done we went back to the living room with my family and we just watched tv and we talked some more. It was getting late so we decided to head back home.

The days went by and I was trying so hard not to fall into depression. When I was alone with Alaina I would just look at her praying she would be with me and never leave my side. I couldn't handle another heartbreak. When I would go to work it would make me forget about my depression because I would be too busy busting my ass. When I would go back home I'll be relieved seeing my baby girl happy and smiling. Things with Casper instead of getting closer we got distant. I wouldn't say anything anymore. Our fights had gotten out of hand one night and that's when I was like whatever.

It was a day I had to go to work and Casper wasn't home. So I was blowing up his phone and he wouldn't answer. After trying one last time he finally answered.