Yet Again History Repeats Itself (Completed)

Chapter 15: Unrealistic

If looks were able to kill she'd be dead by now. I turned to look at Abel " why the fuck is she here " I said. " I have no idea little ena " said Abel. I was pissed off how dare Olga show up. Like what the actual fuck is she thinking I swear if she weren't pregnant I'd drag that hoe out. She made eye contact with me and she looked shocked surprised to see me. I gave her a blank stare showing no emotion. I was just still standing there and she came my way.

" humm hi " she said.

" what are you doing here " I asked irritated.

" I came to see my baby daddy for the last time " she said.

Even though hearing that hurt me so damn bad I just nodded my head and went to go sit down.

Time passed and finally they were starting the ceremony. Once the father was done he asked if anyone wanted to go and say a few words. Abel went.

" you might be gone G but you'll always remain in our hearts and minds. You'll never be forgotten. I remember when we first met it was in grade school and I needed a pencil and you let me borrow one and from there our friendship grew ene. Damn we only have the memories left. Rest easy G. " said Abel with tears in his eyes.

After he got done I went up to talk. " even though we only dated for a few months it felt like a lifetime. You will always be the love of my life. I wake up every single day hoping and wishing it's just a bad dream and reality hits and the sadness overcomes me all over again. Not many knew you like I did. Not many saw you the way I did. And no one ever loved you like I loved you Andrew. Till the very last breath I take you'll always be loved by me till we meet again my love. Rest in paradise my love I love you. " I said with tears in my eyes. His mom came up to me and hugged me as we sat back down. Then one of his brothers went up and after that they started to bury him.

I couldn't control my crying I fell to the ground saying " no baby please come back to me don't leave me alone you promised me " over and over again. Then Abel came to my side pulled me up and said it was time to go. I didn't want to leave. Seeing them bury him broke the rest of me. The last bit of life I had in me was completely gone. I wanted to leave and be with him. Abel hugged me and I broke down even more crying in his shoulder and he would hug me tight. After a while I calmed down and we left.

" so what happens now " I asked in a raspy voice.

" we try to live our life's like nothing happened " said Abel.

" how can I do that if all I want to do is end my life " I said.

" you can't he wouldn't want that you need to live your life " said Abel.

" yeah I know " I said.

" the homies are getting together want to go " he asked.

" nah just take me home I don't belong with you guys " I said.

" says who " he said.

" I said so. And it's just different without A around" I said.

" you can always kick it with us you know " he said.

" yeah I know but I want to go home " I said.

He dropped me off at my house and I didn't want to believe what just happened I wanted to go back into time. I walked inside and just went to my room and went to bed.

I distance myself from everyone I wasn't talking to anyone but my brothers and parents. I was hardly eating. I was able to tell I was losing weight because my clothes would fit to big now. I would wear more long sleeves now and more bracelets. I was popping more pills and all they gave me was a stomach ache. I'd stay high every single day. It was like this for months. In January after the winter break I started to talk to this guy named Gabriel. We'd talk everyday. It was the day to go back to school now. And I met up with Gabriel at school.

I was looking for him but couldn't find him so I texted him. " where are you I'm in the locker rooms waiting by your locker " I texted. Then someone covered my eyes and said " guess " I sorta smiled " Gabriel " I said. He laughed and said " yeah".

So we started to walk to the cafeteria to get our schedules.

" how was your winter break " asked Gabriel.

" it was good and yours " I asked.

" liar mine was okay could've been better if you let me go see you " he said.

" fine it was horrible I hated every minute of it. Whatever shut up " I said laughing.

" see that's more like it now that's believable " he said.

" yeah I know it is " i said.

We were waiting in line now to get our schedules then it was our turn and we got our classes and we started to compare them.

" well looks like I'll see you 3rd, lunch, 4th, and 5th " said Gabriel.

" oh great " I said laughing.

" this will be fun " he said.

" right for us not the teachers " I said.

We laughed and he took me to my first class.

" I'll see you later " he said giving me a hug and left. I walked inside the classroom and sat down.

" good morning " said the teacher.

" good morning mrs" I said back.

I went and looked for a book to read while the class start it was my English 9 class. The rest of the day went on and I stayed to myself. Then lunch came and I was waiting for Gabriel and while I was waiting for him Yessi came up to me.

" hey waiting for someone " she asked.

" ey, yeah I'm waiting for Gabriel, why what's up " I said.

" just asking can I chill with you guys. I don't know anyone " she said.

" yeah sure " I said. Then Gabriel came up to us and he gave me a hug and said hey to us both. We went to the vending machine and got some snacks to eat and we went and sat by the window.

Yessi and Gabriel were talking and I was lost in my thoughts. I was able to tell that Yessi started to flirt with him which it didn't surprise me. I just brushed it off. Then the bell rang and I stayed talking with Yessi outside my class while Gabriel went inside to find us a seat.

" so what you think of him " asked Yessi.

" well I kinda like him. He seems different " I said smiling.

" awe you have a crush " she said.

I laughed " yeah I do " I said smiling.

" he seems good " she said then the warning bell rang and she left and I went inside smiling. The thought of Gabriel and me together gave me butterflies in my stomach.

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