Yet Again History Repeats Itself (Completed)

Chapter 25: Voices In My Head

" you're very beautiful " he said smiling.

I blushed and got shy " humm thanks " I said laughing a bit.

He laughed " well I'll text you later on when I wake up " he said.

" okay that's good well bye " I said leaving inside.

Well that was something. I felt butterflies when he told me that. I geeking out badly. Then I calmed down and went to bed tryna sleep. For some reason I was comfortable with him. I was lost in my thought thinking of him when my phone rang. I saw it and it was G. Fuckkkk I forgot to text him back that I got home.

" hey G sorry I forgot to text back but am home already " I said in a hurry.

" fucking Gigglesz you gave me a panic attack. I was about to haunt down Caspers ass. But I'm glad you're home now " said G.

" yeah sorry foo my bad ese. How you know him tho " I asked.

" Victor knew his brothers or something like that I don't know but I met him by Victor why " he asked.

" just wondering I had a good time with him " I said smiling.

" well that's good. He's a good kid mija you should give him a try see how it goes make him your rebound " said G laughing.

I laughed " whatever that's mean but who knows " I said.

" alright then well Ima about to go home and knock the fuck out " said G.

" okay well good night sweet dreams G" I said.

" night mija and you too latez " he said while I hanged up.

Then I knocked out. Sunday morning my bro Omar came inside my room waking me up by body slamming me.

Screaming. "you fucken asshole get the fuck off me you fucking fat ass puto " i said yelling.

He was laughing. " your so fucking mean little twig " said Omar laughing some more.

I rolled my eyes " I said to not call me that anymore" I yelled.

" whatever you are " he teased.

I sighed " no am not Omar " I said more calm.

He grabbed my arm " but you are look my pinky is even bigger then your arm " he said.

" he's saying your ugly in other words. Ha ha ha even your own family hates you! Just kill yourself already. They won't miss you! They don't love you! Anorexic bitch! " said the voices in my head. I just wanted to cry I hated being this way. Why couldn't I have been bigger. Why did I have to look sick. Why do people lie to me saying I'm beautiful. Why couldn't I be perfect for everyone.

I felt my eyes burn so I put a pillow over my head. " whatever dude " I said yelling to Omar.

I heard him laugh in the background.

" you see he doesn't give a fuck about you! And he's your what other half ha ha ha! That's a good one! No one could ever love an anorexic bitch like you! Your a fucking hoe! Having sex with someone and now you want to be with another guy! Ha ha that's all they want you for! To fuck! You aren't beautiful! Haven't you seen yourself! Ugly ass bitch! " said the voices in my head.

I couldn't take it I just wanted to cry and be alone. I took off the pillow and I had my eyes closed.

" Omar get out my room. I'm gonna shower to get ready for work " I said calmly.

" okay twig. Oh yeah we better kick it after work" he said leaving closing the door.

I got up and locked it and fell to the ground crying.