Yet Again History Repeats Itself (Completed)

Chapter 50: I Need You...

"Baby I didn't do anything wrong I promise" said Casper.

"Then what" I said.

"You know how I left and I said I'll be back later well I don't think I'll be able to go back later because I'm sort of not in the state" said Casper slowly and carefully.

"What the fuck, where the hell are you at then" I said pissed off.

He sighed "I came to do a job with shadow I just didn't know it was going to be out of state and we won't be back until tomorrow night" said Casper.

"I seriously can't fucken believe you right now. What the hell Casper you have a son now and you're still doing stupid shit like that. What the fuck! You want  him to grow up without his father? Huh?! Answer me dammit" I said.

"I'm sorry you know I don't want that I want to be in his life baby. I just can't stop if I'm making money this way" said Casper.

"That's why you get a mutha fucking JOB! You asshole" I said livid.

"I've tried it and I just don't make enough like I am right now" said Casper.

I laughed sarcastically "oh you don't make enough awe well ain't that some mutha fucking bullshit huh normal fucking people still work those jobs because it's an honest fucking living you don't see me doing some bullshit like that! I work and I work hard to earn raises and if that's still not enough I get and find another fucking job so don't come at me with some bullshit excuse like that" I said.

"You know what don't bother coming bye" I said hanging up and throwing my phone.

It kept ringing and I was just ignoring it. By this time Jay was awake and crying.

I was frustrated but I tried my best to calm the fuck down.

"It's okay papa momma is here I'm never leaving you papas it's okay don't cry" I said to Jay as I rocked him.

"Mommy is never leaving you and I will do whatever for us to survive I got you papas mommy loves you so much so so so much" I said giving him a kiss as he quiet down.

"It's just you and I against the whole world I'll always put you first my little one your happiness your health your wellbeing will always come before mine" I said.

He went back to sleep in my arms and I was just playing with his hair I'm sure he liked that I was because when I tried to stop he'd move around until I started again and he'd calm down.

"I love you son" I said softly almost a whisper.

The day went by and Casper finally stopped calling and texting my phone I didn't bother reading his texts. After a day of just feeding changing and sleeping Jay we both finally went to sleep for the night.

The days went by and I was finally going back to school. Casper tried coming over but I would only let him see Jay and then I'd ask him to leave. Every time he'd refuse to leave until he'd just give up and leave. We weren't in exactly good terms for the moment. I was still furious for what he did the other day. It's a Monday morning and Jay woke up at 4am and hasn't gone back to sleep.

"Little Jay go back to sleep papas mommy needs to get at least another hour of sleep before getting ready for school papas please go to sleep" I begged Jay.

He just looked at me and baby talked back at me moving his hands.

"Oh you don't want to giving mommy attitude now eh" I said.

He smiled before he continued to do his little baby talk.

I smiled big laughing a little "your so cute I love you but just cause you're a cutie doesn't mean you can get away with anything" I said.