I lay on the bed with tears streaming down my face. I don't know why but whenever i write I'm always crying. All i know is that i got into a fight with my parents. Eh but who cares. I surely don't care about myself. Not at all. I know that I'll be awake for the next few hours just crying and thinking about stuff. Ha I'm so pathetic. So weak. So stupid. Then i will slowly drift off to sleep but then wake up again and again. Then when i have to go to school I know I'll have eye bags cuz lack of sleep. But nobody will notice why because nobody caresssss. Ha im glad i know how to fake happiness so well. Nobody notices. Why cuz nobody caressss. I should just die. Nobody will care or notice my absence. Its like someone cares but it's gone in a few minutes,hours, days,weeks, months. Its gone. Telling me things will get better. Yea sure. Its like saying that I'll get skinnier. Which will never happen. NEVER. I honestly hate looking in the mirror at my self. I immediately look away. I can't bear looking at me. Im so ugly. I internally throw up and just crawl up into a ball in order to escape from everything. But it doesn't work like that. I wake up and I'm still alive. Ha that suxs...
Until next time...that is of there is one....
