I'm not the one to write out my feelings.
I'm the kind of person who lets people treat me like absolute trash and i wont say anything.
Why cant you just be nice. Huh? Is the only thing you know how to do is scream and hit me. And tell me how much a fuck up I am and make me cry. What the hell seriously I thought you fucking loved me. You're an asshole you know that. A stupid self centered and selfish person. And you don't care about any bodys feelings. What happened to oh well do this together. What happened to you and I sitting on my bed holding each other huh? Was it all a fucking lie. I bet it was cuz you're still the same person if not worse. Why the hell do I still stand up for you. Why the hell do I still get you out of problems. Why cant you do the same thing for me. You just like getting me in trouble for things I didnt do. And you do the same things plus more you see me ratting you out. I think not. I have so many things I could tell our parents that would make them so fucking mad and disappointed but you dont see me telling them. Why cant you just be nice please. Just be nice. I want a nice sister. Not a mean one. I want one that loves me and actually cares for me. Not one that doesnt love me and is embarrassed to be around me. I'm sorry but I take pride in you being my older sister. Hell I stand up for you in front of everybody while you just keep on letting everybody say anything they want about me. Why cant you be nice. I remember when mama said I acted like the older sister. Even dad said the same thing. You're supposed to look after me and stay with me not the other way around. You're supposed to know when I'm feeling down not the other way around. You're supposed to be the one helping me stop crying not the one causing It. I just don't understand why you cant be nice to me. Plesse be nice.
Until next time...
If there is one that is.
Stay safe and take care.
