TW: alot of things... just it's really sad considering it's a suicide note.
At the beginning of 8th grade I had started this... I added to it every so often and ended it to this...
To whom it may concern,
My name is yusra and I have decided to end my life. I feel as if I have nothing left anymore. Too hard to ignore the thoughts of worthlessness. To tired of fighting my head.
I'm tired of always being the nice one. I'm tired of not getting recognition for what I've done. I'm tired of being rejected. I'm tired of being reminded that I'm not good enough. I'm tired of feeling sad and lonely all the time. I'm tired of being the one who loves someone so much but gets nothing in return. I'm tired of being left. I'm tired of being ignored and thrown away like I'm absolutely nothing. I'm tired of people thinking I'm okay with whatever they're doing and whatever is happening to me. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of being the one who does so much for someone but they don't do anything in return. I'm tired of being the kind and sweet and caring and loving and considerate sister or friend in general only to get nothing in return. And get the words "You do nothing for me." When in reality I've done everything for them. I'm tired of holding back my tears. I'm tired of saying that I'm okay. I'm tired of people being completely oblivious to the fact that I'm so not okay even when it's so obvious that I'm not. I'm tired of hiding things just cuz they wont like me fore who I am. I'm tired of following certain rules. I'm tired of being the strong one. I'm tired of being accused of shit I didn't do. I'm tired of thinking everything is my fault. I'm tired of staying clean. I'm tired of staying awake at night. Im tired of restless nights. I'm tired of my mind screaming at me about how stupid and fucked up I am. I'm tired of fighting the thoughts of worthlessness. I'm tired of people bringing me down cuz I dont fit their expectations. I'm tired of hearing it will get better. I'm tired of being told to stay alive and stay strong. I'm tired of being called fat. I'm tired of having this giant rock on my body. I'm tired of trying so hard to lift it. I'm tired of breaking up fights between 3 people who mean the entire universe to me. I'm tired of getting hurt. I am only a year old girl. I can only do so much mom,dad,sister, girlfriend, best friends if I can even call some of you my best friends , ex-gf . I'm tired of loving those who hurt me. I'm tired of loving and caring for those who don't give a fuck about me. I am so fucking tired of all this shit. Try to forget about me. I love each and everyone who reads this. And I'm sorry. This I admit is my fault. And I'm sorry but this is my decision.
Cant do this anymore
I'm sorry.
Goodbye.
Not dying promise.
Just leaving for awhile. Yea.
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I love you all so very much.
Take care of yourself please
And stay safe.
Until next time.
I promise there is one.
Smile
Stay happy.
Love you guys.❤
